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i don't know what i'm doing to myself or those around me. i seem to rationalize everything in a way that starts to make sense and gives way to my actions. i feel like i'm suffocating beneath the turmoil twisting my brain but i can't pinpoint anything negative in my life other then myself. am i really just this horrible human being or is there just something wrong with the situation in which i find myself. but if it's the situation, then why is it so clearly surfacing now, now that i found something new. is all that just an excuse to give reign to the negative aspects of my personality and apparently my lack of morals? it kills me to hurt someone's feelings but should i suffer instead?
these are just a few thoughts that have been keeping me awake for the last month, well those and "-----" in the dirtiest scenarios possible.
these are just a few thoughts that have been keeping me awake for the last month, well those and "-----" in the dirtiest scenarios possible.