I promise I can deal with it.

[kasi_raindrops]

okay, so jsyk, I've finally quit the band. It was nasty and I didn't want it to end that way, but that wasn't my fault. Stephanie called my on Friday about two weeks ago, and told me that she'd scheduled us a performance in front of five thousand people on May 29th, which is one day before my finals, and the day after my brother's wedding. yeah, not so good. So I told her I couldn't because of the date and that we couldn't do that anyway, because I didn't think the band was ready for that. I mean, they can't even perform in front of a hundred people without getting dangerously nervous, why the hell had they thought they could do that? idk. anyway, so she got really pissed off and told me that I don't care enough, and that I've changed and that she doesn't like it. I told her to go fuck herself and that she could start finding a new singer coz I'd had enough.
Nathan called me the next day and yelled at me too, so I guess that ended too. I kinda didn't want to lose him coz he was a very close friend of mine, but I guess he has made his choice.

So I guess now I'm band-less. lol
I don't feel bad about it at all. I have neither time nor money for a band now, so I know it's for the best. I also don't miss her that much, I'm kinda relieved. I know it's weird, but I am. It feels so much better to not have to spend time and money with someone that I don't like being with.
I've got my real friends with me, and my internet friends and my friends from work, so I'm all set.

Pasha, I promise that this weekend I'll do something about those pics I need to send you. PROMISE. and I love you. a lot.

I'm going to study now, eventhough I'm totally powerless. wish me luck.
kisses. x