yesterday was a yucky day

[kashmir42]

I had a breakdown yesterday. I mean a major melt down. I ended up in the hopital connected to heart monitors because I couldn't breathe. After x rays and an EKG it end up that I am just to stressed out. I carry to much on my shoulders sometimes it gets to heavy for me to carry it all. Everyone keeps telling me to get on meds. I can't help but to

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[lusciousagony]

Ugh, it sounds to me, (even though I really don't know you well) that you may have experienced an anxiety or panic attack. About 4 years ago, I had several of these 'melt downs' that occurred ever so often for a couple months. I went to most likely every emergency room in every hosptital in Fresno. Problem was that, after tons of xrays, and EKG's, etc, no one could find anything accutely wrong. One doctor said I had Bronchitis ? I've never had that in my life, I knew she was wrong in her diagnoses.

These 'melt downs' (as you refer to them) were so destructive that I couldn't breath, I'd sleep all the time, I couldn't see people, and I couldn't take care of my 6 mo. old daughter. Most people would say, well it is probably postpartum depression. Finally, I knew I needed help because I could see myself slipping away. My aunt drove down and we went to Fresno County Mental health...DON'T EVER GO THERE. They told me it would be months before I could get help, and made me sit through a question and answer session about my drug use? Anyhow, my Aunt suggested that we go see my general doctor and let him know my symptoms. Sure enough, that was the best thing we could have done. My doctor said that he didn't think I had depression, but rather a bad case of anxiety. So, I was diagnosed with an Anxiety disorder. He put me on Celexa and in the beginning also on Klonopins to counteract the Celexa for 2 months. Within 2 months I was back to normal and could function correctly again. I could breathe normally again, which was the scariest part for me.

Almost everyone I know says they won't go on meds because they will feel defeated. Well, to each their own, but going on meds was the BEST thing I could do for myself. I am thankful for what Celexa has done for me.

Also, do some research about Seratonin levels in your body, because that is what Celexa is providing mine. Mine had gotten seriously low, it seemed. Also, have your Thyroid checked, apparently that is linked to anxiety and panic problems. Ironically, mine had stopped working, so I have to be on meds for that the rest of my life.

I am sorry this is so long winded!!! You can delete it you like. When I was glancing through my friends pages, which I don't do often anymore, I recognized your symptoms as something I experienced.

Just know that if you do have an anxiety disorder or panic disorder, or even if you are just having the attacks associated with them, there is help out there....it just might help you.

If you have any questions, as I can ramble on and on about what I've done to rememdy this in my own life, feel free to drop me an email hun.

Take care of you!

[kashmir42]

thanks so much for the info. hearing things like that is comforting in a wierd way.I have battled anxiety for quite some time and I know I should try some meds but I am very afraid to. I'm glad things worked out for you. I can't wait until I find the way back to a normal thought process.

[lusciousagony]

You don't have to answer this, being it may be personal and your journal is public, but can I ask why you are so afraid of taking meds? I mean, aren't you more afraid of the anxiety and the breakdowns? Imagine one while driving the kids around? I am just curious, because I was more afraid of the actual attacks and symptoms, never the meds.

I'm glad you found my words comforting, even though it is in a weird way, dear.