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okay so i'm starting to get really depressed. not cause joel is leaving... eventually(it does depress me but you know) but also cause its seems like everyones got these great awesome new plans (joel and MMI, casey in beauty school, jess with switching to law) that i just feel like left out. i'm still doing the same shit i was doing before and at this point not really getting anywhere in life for it.
it's so sad to hear joel talk about this and that and what he wants to do cause i remember when i was excited like that too. i'm goin to NAU i'm gonna be an athletic trainer, it's the perfect job for me blah blah. it's just not exciting to me anymore and i know you can't just keep changing your mind every year about what you wanna be or what you wanna do, and i know that i've gotten a chance of a lifetime here goin to school for free and doing what i always said i wanted to do but i just feel like blah.
i also wanna let some people know that theres nothin i could do to stop joel he's goin to phx. i just decided to be with him whenever i can and when the time comes for him to move to phx i wouldn't try to do anything to stop him. he'll be happy in phx and i want him to be happy.
i'm so happy when i'm with joel right now that when i'm without him i feel sad and i get upset cause i know i'll eventually be without him forever. but like they say if you love something let it go and if it comes back it was meant to be. not to sound pessimistic but i don't think he's coming back. i dunno.
it's so sad to hear joel talk about this and that and what he wants to do cause i remember when i was excited like that too. i'm goin to NAU i'm gonna be an athletic trainer, it's the perfect job for me blah blah. it's just not exciting to me anymore and i know you can't just keep changing your mind every year about what you wanna be or what you wanna do, and i know that i've gotten a chance of a lifetime here goin to school for free and doing what i always said i wanted to do but i just feel like blah.
i also wanna let some people know that theres nothin i could do to stop joel he's goin to phx. i just decided to be with him whenever i can and when the time comes for him to move to phx i wouldn't try to do anything to stop him. he'll be happy in phx and i want him to be happy.
i'm so happy when i'm with joel right now that when i'm without him i feel sad and i get upset cause i know i'll eventually be without him forever. but like they say if you love something let it go and if it comes back it was meant to be. not to sound pessimistic but i don't think he's coming back. i dunno.