"the players, disguised as lovers. the best friend. a game of who needs who the worst."
tonight at work i was thinking about how wonderful it would be if you were able to have someone to understand exacty what it was that you were thinking...if you never had to try to put into words what you were feeling and they knew exactly how you felt.
i did discover tonight, though, that kevin knows me better than anyone does. he picks up on things about me that no one else would probably ever notice, even if they were looking for it. he doesn't know everything that i do, everything it is that i experience on a day to day basis-but he knows me. i wish i could just sit down and talk to him about everything; we need to have one of our famous four hour conversations, except for once i want to have it face to face instead of over the phone. more than anything, i need me and kev to be like we use to.
i wish ashley and i got to hang out more often. i wish that i was able to be with all my friends again. i wish that i wasn't grounded-and that at that, i wish i knew when i would be able to be ungrounded. i wish that people didn't judge you by your past mistakes but by you handled yourself and the situation afterwards. i wish the lessons you have to learn the hard way didn't hurt so much. i wish i knew the answers to all the questions ive been having lately.
it's been one of those days,
kasey