why do i care?

[kasey_tara]

hey... ya so i havent felt like this in a long time. i was just looking online and i saw something that upset me. i cant really say what cause i dont want to hurt that persons feelings cause i do like them but i guess im just not ready to read it. i thought that i was completely over it...but i dont think that iam. cuase when i read it my stomach like fell to the floor and i just wanted to die.. is that weird? i dont know i guess i knew that it was going ot happen and i should have known..but i dont think that i really thoguht that they talked. like in my head i knew that they did but maybe i was just hopin that they really didnt anymore. but i guess they do.. i need to get over it though cause its been a while. but i guess im not over it .  i think tthat im over the situation..but deff not over the reasons i know that things ended. and then to see them together i guess it just kinda pissed me off. i shouldnt get sad but i am. its so hard to explain. because im over it but at the same time i just hoped they werent. but now i know they are. i miss that person but i cant get upset about it, becuase i know we still care but its just like a kick in the face. i know nothing could happen but at the same time i wonder. maybe im just making this stuff up in my head but its just how i feel . i dont its just the first time in a long time that i have been bothered by everything. when i have been trying so hard and then just to realize that it didnt do anything.

okay well you all are probbly wicked confused so im going to stop writting. i just had to get this out for now, because i needed to express my feelings about it but like i dont want to start anything.. but thats just how i feel . and its probbly not about who you all are thinking its about either...