JOJOS SURPRISE PARTAY
WOOOOO IT WAS JOHANNAS BDAY!!! yaa so we threw her a huge surprise party tonight. nicki me sammi tegan lauren holly and mallory set up for the parrty. it came out nicely. i liked it alot!!!! and then slowly more and more people showed up. there was atleast 40 kids in jos little upton house. hahah but it was fun!!!!
OMG MILES DAVIS WAS THERE. ya i just want to say that i fuckin cream myself everytime that i see him. he is so gorgeous. nicki and i like diiiieeee...its nuts. ya he touched my arm and my sholder. im like never ever going to clean them again. and he like talked to me on his own. but his stupid together girl was there. ya she needed to leave but thats okay!!
ya soooo i got to see my favorite kids! adam dean biron chris and kurt! it was nice to see them. i love chris sooooo much he is wicked aweseome. except that he like pretended he couldnt lift me up and made me feel wicked stupid. but thats okay.. i can live with it. and deannnnny weannny im absolutely in love with. he makes me soooo happy. he is just so fuckin funny! then theres biron! wow can i say alot baout him. he is just so great! i wish he lived next door to me.. i would like hang out with him everyday of my life. hahaha " OH MY GOD I HAVE CANDY ON ME!! WTF" hahha hes greatttt!!!!! and kurt my nipple friend. yes he has one larger nipple then the other. but he makes me wicked happy, because he is just a happy person.
oh and then there is my ...adam. oh where to even begin. i dont even know. he confuses me soooooooo bad! he was wicked nice to me all night tongiht. it was weird he was very flirty and like touchy with me, which he hasnt been like since the end of the summer. when things ended. but like he was like giving me huge hugs and like rubbing my legs nad then he would lean really close into my face and like kiss my cheek and whisper in my ears and i was just liek ahhh!!! and then he would go off with sammi. and be all flirty with her or whatever...i was like ahhhhhhhhh like i cant get mad, but i just dont know what he really wants. and then he asked me to go on a walk and i was like ehhhhh and he was like fine be that way. so i was like ya! and i went over to him and we were talking and i hadto go home with ellen and he was like do you kjust want me to give you a ride home? and i ofocourse wanted to! soooo i called my mom and said that i was going home wiht dean. so like in the car we were listening to 106.7 and stuff and like he was being nice and shit. and then we got to my hous e and i gave him a hug and i asked it to be a goood one! and he was like no you dont deserve one and i was like what! he was like you didnt go on a walk with me...so iwas like mmkay!
then after this went on for a little whileee...i finallyjust kissed him on the cheeeek! and he was liek whattt i only get that and i was like what do you want and he leaned in and kissed me. and i pulled away and he leaned back in and kept kissing me and like holding me neck and everything, and to make it better in the back ground it was a love song and i was like melting inside! so i just kind pulled back and wwas like night adam! and got out of the car.
but i dont know its just all so confusing cause i dont really know what i want. like i was so happy to kiss him, but i dont know if that was the best thing for me. but whatever it was worth it. i love that kid! he completes me!!!! hahha thank god we can still be friends after everything that has happened between us!
but ya im just rambling on about nothing!!! SO IM DONE! hahhaha ya sooo tonight = goood night. im so happy for jojo she was wicked happy. but okay im really doneeeeee...night eveyrone! <3 mwa love yas LATUH