thought of the day part forty-six: what's it gonna take?
So yes. It's true. I am (and have been for a while) officially signed up to run the chicago marathon in October.
HOWEVER. I am having the most difficult time trying to train for it. I am feeling so anxious about not being able to do it that I end up mentally paralyzing myself. The last time I ran anything close to an actual marathon (26.2 miles) was at my half marathon race at the end of May, and believe me, I haven't done much close to 13.1 miles since then. I want to say I'm training, because technically I should be, but I'm not.
I'm suddenly scared to run, and I hate that about myself. I can't figure out what I can do to get myself going. I come home from work every night at 5:30 or 6 and all I want to do is sleep. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!
I hate admitting all of this. It makes me feel like a failure, already. So what do I do???
help!
HOWEVER. I am having the most difficult time trying to train for it. I am feeling so anxious about not being able to do it that I end up mentally paralyzing myself. The last time I ran anything close to an actual marathon (26.2 miles) was at my half marathon race at the end of May, and believe me, I haven't done much close to 13.1 miles since then. I want to say I'm training, because technically I should be, but I'm not.
I'm suddenly scared to run, and I hate that about myself. I can't figure out what I can do to get myself going. I come home from work every night at 5:30 or 6 and all I want to do is sleep. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!
I hate admitting all of this. It makes me feel like a failure, already. So what do I do???
help!