Awake and still dreaming
There comes a time in everyones life, when everything slows down just enoght to think about the past and the present. Instead of constantly worrying about the furture and what will be, you have time to reflect upon what is and what was.
You know those stupid meme's that you see on myspace that ask you " Two years ago today" and things like that.. I hate them.. But this is my version.
Four years ago I started an amazing relationship, with someone I though I would never see again after he graduated. We spent damn near two years together.
In that time, because of him I have made some amazing friends.. I don't think i ever took the time to thank him for everythink he unknowingly gave me.
Holly- You were just his ex when we met. We neevr really had a reason to become friends over that simple fact. Because typically current girlfriends and ex girlfriends aren't supposed to be friends.. at least most people look at it that way. But you know what? We did. and I couldn't have asked for a better friend to come out of that. Through you, I got to know all of the crazy MTAC peeps that I know today.. I'm just really happy that we are where we are today... I think you're quite possibly one of the only girlfriends from 4 years ago that I still see on a regular basis..
Jamie- I was so happy to go to AWA with you that very first time.. You were my first friend at cooks that wasn't completley tied to Jacob. We became friends of our own accord. You helped me by listening to me rant about relationship bs and just being a great friend. You and I had a blast just goign to the mall and hanging out. You watched and probably laughed the night I first attempted para at the DBA Lock in... That was a great night.. You more or less were my gateway to becoming the great freinds I am with Holly... YOu and her both introduced me to MIKE and Gelly as a new but eager paralist... I loved you so much then, and I strill do!
I miss those days a lot, when it was just us.. in the church, working our butts off for MTAC go.. I miss that a whole lot.
Mike and Gelly- holly and jamie intorduced me to para and you guys were just cool with that. I had seen how other paralists took to newcomers by way of the early drama online, but you guys were just cool with it. I was so afraid I would be horrible at it and you guys would just laugh.. Thanks for not laughing.. Gelly, you are the only other girlfreind from that long ago that I keep and contact with as well.. Rememeber what we were supposed to go do this weekend? I'm glad we didsn't becasue it just would have made me a worse person for it... BUt gd did we have a blast at AWA this past year right? I miss you two becuase I don't EVER see you guys.. We should try and change that...
For any of those people who were there at MTAC Go.. You should know ( Ken, Bo) that you guys are part of the reason I continue to love MTAC.. YOu two esp since you didn't even know me yet... You were there when I was freaking the hell out.. Thanks.. ( BTW, Ken, I still have that green sticker you gaved me)
Almost two years ago, I was crying myself to sleep on a weekly basis because the one girl I grew up with from birth.. My best friend in the whole world even if we never speak again... Was aboiut to have a baby.. It killed me because we were so young and we were supposed to raise our kids together like we were. It took me a long time to get over that bit of selfishness.. and now, I see that she's a great mother.. with a beautiful daughter and a beautiful boy on the way. I don' think I've ever told her just how prooud of her I am.
Two years ago had ool me my dad wasn't perfect I woud ave not believed you. I would have defended my dad with everything I have. My mom, was a different story. I could tell you all her flaws...
My how things change... In just two short years, my dad and I are like strangers and me and my mother are now closer than ever. I miss my old image of my dada. but i know now, that that isn;t who he really was.. Dissillusionment is not a pretty picture...
For those who know, you know. If not, ask and I may let you into my secret.
I guess the poitn of this has changed. It's not about nostalgia.. or memories.. It's about saying thank you to everyone who matters in my life.. For anything and everything they have ever done for me..
EVen if I havn't mentioned your name.. If you are my friend.. If we have spoken at least once.. either on AIM, or face to face.. Than I have something to thank you for..
You know those stupid meme's that you see on myspace that ask you " Two years ago today" and things like that.. I hate them.. But this is my version.
Four years ago I started an amazing relationship, with someone I though I would never see again after he graduated. We spent damn near two years together.
In that time, because of him I have made some amazing friends.. I don't think i ever took the time to thank him for everythink he unknowingly gave me.
Holly- You were just his ex when we met. We neevr really had a reason to become friends over that simple fact. Because typically current girlfriends and ex girlfriends aren't supposed to be friends.. at least most people look at it that way. But you know what? We did. and I couldn't have asked for a better friend to come out of that. Through you, I got to know all of the crazy MTAC peeps that I know today.. I'm just really happy that we are where we are today... I think you're quite possibly one of the only girlfriends from 4 years ago that I still see on a regular basis..
Jamie- I was so happy to go to AWA with you that very first time.. You were my first friend at cooks that wasn't completley tied to Jacob. We became friends of our own accord. You helped me by listening to me rant about relationship bs and just being a great friend. You and I had a blast just goign to the mall and hanging out. You watched and probably laughed the night I first attempted para at the DBA Lock in... That was a great night.. You more or less were my gateway to becoming the great freinds I am with Holly... YOu and her both introduced me to MIKE and Gelly as a new but eager paralist... I loved you so much then, and I strill do!
I miss those days a lot, when it was just us.. in the church, working our butts off for MTAC go.. I miss that a whole lot.
Mike and Gelly- holly and jamie intorduced me to para and you guys were just cool with that. I had seen how other paralists took to newcomers by way of the early drama online, but you guys were just cool with it. I was so afraid I would be horrible at it and you guys would just laugh.. Thanks for not laughing.. Gelly, you are the only other girlfreind from that long ago that I keep and contact with as well.. Rememeber what we were supposed to go do this weekend? I'm glad we didsn't becasue it just would have made me a worse person for it... BUt gd did we have a blast at AWA this past year right? I miss you two becuase I don't EVER see you guys.. We should try and change that...
For any of those people who were there at MTAC Go.. You should know ( Ken, Bo) that you guys are part of the reason I continue to love MTAC.. YOu two esp since you didn't even know me yet... You were there when I was freaking the hell out.. Thanks.. ( BTW, Ken, I still have that green sticker you gaved me)
Almost two years ago, I was crying myself to sleep on a weekly basis because the one girl I grew up with from birth.. My best friend in the whole world even if we never speak again... Was aboiut to have a baby.. It killed me because we were so young and we were supposed to raise our kids together like we were. It took me a long time to get over that bit of selfishness.. and now, I see that she's a great mother.. with a beautiful daughter and a beautiful boy on the way. I don' think I've ever told her just how prooud of her I am.
Two years ago had ool me my dad wasn't perfect I woud ave not believed you. I would have defended my dad with everything I have. My mom, was a different story. I could tell you all her flaws...
My how things change... In just two short years, my dad and I are like strangers and me and my mother are now closer than ever. I miss my old image of my dada. but i know now, that that isn;t who he really was.. Dissillusionment is not a pretty picture...
For those who know, you know. If not, ask and I may let you into my secret.
I guess the poitn of this has changed. It's not about nostalgia.. or memories.. It's about saying thank you to everyone who matters in my life.. For anything and everything they have ever done for me..
EVen if I havn't mentioned your name.. If you are my friend.. If we have spoken at least once.. either on AIM, or face to face.. Than I have something to thank you for..