what was i saying

[kasear]

I have to make a slight apology to a few people. I get a bit hmm snippy I think is the word. This time of year. If anyone remembers correctly about a year or so ago I guess. (time flies) Is when things kind of hit the shitter for lack of better phrase for me. This is when things really started falling appart. Lea and all that stuff. I always go back and revist, go through my mind and see what I did. So I'll never forget, for next time right? To be honest I dont think there will be a next time for me. I'm so far gone from any feeling s, besides annoyance, that its really not worth it. It affects me in so many ways aswell. I dont put forth the effort needed to do things. My classwork suffers the most. I really could be making nothing short of A's. I know the material I know what it takes for me to know it and for me to use it. I just dont care.

I really want to care I just don't. aw well, I'll do my best and perhaps breakthrough someday.