well ...
sometimes i think even though i'm the youngest in my family i'm the most grown up in a way i grown up so different that my sisters i'm so out there compared to them and when my sister talks to me about her and her boyfriend i just think that wow your still stuck in high school when are you gonna grow up ... sad right but i love em a lot ... you know i always thought i'd end up with someone that would take care of me that would always be here for me through whatever and would be stable to be with forever i never thought i'd be where i was about four years ago ... dating someone that is in jail that doesn't have a good job for shit that is going nowhere that has a san already ... wow i never thought i'd be someone wiht half a family already i mean maybe it wouldn't bother me if thay were more of a parent but i don't know how i feel about picking up peices of a family and trying to put me in there ... i want my own family i want my own life i want my own things i want to be stable and on my own and away from san antonio ... i don't know about this girl i'm dating i really don't i think i should be done with school in june of next year and i hope that i will be i think i'm move about august f next year we'll see ... i don't want to move by myself but you know untill i find someone that i can really trust i won't go .... yup i really think i'll go anyway ... but yeah ... oh well ... i dont know for now i just want things to be over with i want her out of jail i want things to go back to normal and i want to figure things out and be happy and talk to solarr and shee justin and find out what ever happened to micheal from ohio ... and i want to see my nephew and i want to be with my grandma and take away all her apin and be somewhere i can drive ten minutes and see a different house then the one next to it ... for now i'm content with who i know witch is not very many people but i am i have no need to know anybody else i can't take the drama ... i still don't know who slashed my tires and that bothers me a lot and the fact that my dad ramed my car with my momma's car ... wow my poor baby huh she's been through a lot and i'm sad about that ... but you know how that goes ... but i think i'm done with my bitching now ...