yes, nevermind // top secret.
I don't really have many bad days these days, but today has certainly been... somewhat of A Day.
POOP
- Christmas. In spite of us getting to Ame's work no more than five minutes after the holiday shift sign-ups went up, Ame wasn't able to get the shifts she wanted. Which means... she has to work Christmas Eve and the day after Christmas. Which means she can't spend Christmas in California like she planned. And hell if I'm leaving her alone on Christmas, so that means we're spending Christmas in Massachusetts.
Neither of us have ever spent Christmas without our families. Needless to say, we were rather... crushed. But we've spent all afternoon trying to cheer ourselves up about it, thinking of fun Christmassy things to do together and stuff like that, and... it'll be okay. It's not what we'd been planning, but... we'll make it work and we'll make it good.
Ame's mom took it really well, saying that it's not the day that matters, just that Ame will get to see them (since she's going to go after Christmas instead.) Meanwhile, my mom... reacted pretty strongly and was a lot more disappointed than I'd expected her to be... I don't remember the last time I heard her so disappointed. It made me feel terrible, and Ame worse, which made me feel worse... I don't know. As they are the two most important people in the world to me, either of them, much less both of them sad is just.. really tough. I sent Mom a long email after we talked on the phone, inviting her and Dad up for Christmas up here instead, so maybe that will work out... I don't know. Christmas is a big deal to all three of us, not religiously but emotionally and... tonight's been pretty emotional. I'm sure it'll work out, it's just been tough to get used to the idea, I think.
I said it on Twitter but I'll say it here: if we hear "I'll Be Home For Christmas" at any point this holiday season there will probably be tears. Followed by punching. Sigh.
- College. My school implemented a new Academic Requirement page that shows you everything you have left to complete for your degree. I... oh boy. This should be my fourth year, right? Well, I knew it wasn't going to be my last year. I've known that for some time, seeing as I failed most of my classes freshman year (go go Gadget depressed-as-shit) and took a semester off after that year. But I don't think I realized exactly how much I have left. At this rate, I'm going to be struggling to have enough credits to graduate by the end of next year. Winter and summer courses will probably be necessary, and I really hate the sound of those.
Not to mention I have TWO holds on my enrollment for absolutely no raisin. I'm sure I can work it out once I talk to somebody but it's mostly just annoying.
The only comfort to this frustration (and it is a massive comfort) is Ame's promise to stay here with me until I finish school. Really, really lucky here, hi.
- But really, college. Did I mention I'm still really behind and drowning in assignments and papers and projects? Also god seriously fuck this art class, drawing gigantic charcoal silhouettes of my massively unflattering profile is really awful for my self-esteem. Blah blah cry more sorry.
LESS POOP
+ Pokemon. with a bit of help from a Robin Hood (♥), stuff got worked out with an auction that had gotten kind of messy towards the end and as a result dis puppy is coming home. ♥ ok ok I know, POKEMON TOYS ARE SRS but it's something I've been looking for for a long time and I'm just really happy ok ; ~;
+ Yossi. the new HANGRY&ANGRY PV is out. No seriously, you have no idea how much this cheered us up. Yossi is... absurdly hot and the new song is rullll good. The new album drops November 18th, we are so excited. ♥ Oh god please come back to the States ASAP.
+ Life really is okay. I try not to do much complaining in my livejournal anymore because I really don't have much to complain about. It just helps to get it out, you know? But at the end of the day, I have a family to see at Christmastime, I'm still lucky enough to even be in college, and I have the most incredible girl in the world willing to stick by me through anything, and hell if I won't do the same for her.
Even if she's lying next to me taking screenshots of Yoshizawa Hitomi's mouth.
...who am I kidding, ESPECIALLY because she's lying next to me taking screenshots of Yoshizawa Hitomi's mouth.
EDIT EDIT another good thing ok ok I'm a weiner but it's made me really happy
+ /cgl/ today... what? There's a Cute Couples of Cosplay thread going on on /cgl/ right now and they've had nothing but nice things to say about me and Ame and oh god we are just absolutely screaming I can't even. ;;_____;; idk if any of you guys have a hand in that but flbflbflf way to be adorable, /cgl/. I-I... got called a chivalrous knight ;;;;;;; ♥♥
POOP
- Christmas. In spite of us getting to Ame's work no more than five minutes after the holiday shift sign-ups went up, Ame wasn't able to get the shifts she wanted. Which means... she has to work Christmas Eve and the day after Christmas. Which means she can't spend Christmas in California like she planned. And hell if I'm leaving her alone on Christmas, so that means we're spending Christmas in Massachusetts.
Neither of us have ever spent Christmas without our families. Needless to say, we were rather... crushed. But we've spent all afternoon trying to cheer ourselves up about it, thinking of fun Christmassy things to do together and stuff like that, and... it'll be okay. It's not what we'd been planning, but... we'll make it work and we'll make it good.
Ame's mom took it really well, saying that it's not the day that matters, just that Ame will get to see them (since she's going to go after Christmas instead.) Meanwhile, my mom... reacted pretty strongly and was a lot more disappointed than I'd expected her to be... I don't remember the last time I heard her so disappointed. It made me feel terrible, and Ame worse, which made me feel worse... I don't know. As they are the two most important people in the world to me, either of them, much less both of them sad is just.. really tough. I sent Mom a long email after we talked on the phone, inviting her and Dad up for Christmas up here instead, so maybe that will work out... I don't know. Christmas is a big deal to all three of us, not religiously but emotionally and... tonight's been pretty emotional. I'm sure it'll work out, it's just been tough to get used to the idea, I think.
I said it on Twitter but I'll say it here: if we hear "I'll Be Home For Christmas" at any point this holiday season there will probably be tears. Followed by punching. Sigh.
- College. My school implemented a new Academic Requirement page that shows you everything you have left to complete for your degree. I... oh boy. This should be my fourth year, right? Well, I knew it wasn't going to be my last year. I've known that for some time, seeing as I failed most of my classes freshman year (go go Gadget depressed-as-shit) and took a semester off after that year. But I don't think I realized exactly how much I have left. At this rate, I'm going to be struggling to have enough credits to graduate by the end of next year. Winter and summer courses will probably be necessary, and I really hate the sound of those.
Not to mention I have TWO holds on my enrollment for absolutely no raisin. I'm sure I can work it out once I talk to somebody but it's mostly just annoying.
The only comfort to this frustration (and it is a massive comfort) is Ame's promise to stay here with me until I finish school. Really, really lucky here, hi.
- But really, college. Did I mention I'm still really behind and drowning in assignments and papers and projects? Also god seriously fuck this art class, drawing gigantic charcoal silhouettes of my massively unflattering profile is really awful for my self-esteem. Blah blah cry more sorry.
LESS POOP
+ Pokemon. with a bit of help from a Robin Hood (♥), stuff got worked out with an auction that had gotten kind of messy towards the end and as a result dis puppy is coming home. ♥ ok ok I know, POKEMON TOYS ARE SRS but it's something I've been looking for for a long time and I'm just really happy ok ; ~;
+ Yossi. the new HANGRY&ANGRY PV is out. No seriously, you have no idea how much this cheered us up. Yossi is... absurdly hot and the new song is rullll good. The new album drops November 18th, we are so excited. ♥ Oh god please come back to the States ASAP.
+ Life really is okay. I try not to do much complaining in my livejournal anymore because I really don't have much to complain about. It just helps to get it out, you know? But at the end of the day, I have a family to see at Christmastime, I'm still lucky enough to even be in college, and I have the most incredible girl in the world willing to stick by me through anything, and hell if I won't do the same for her.
Even if she's lying next to me taking screenshots of Yoshizawa Hitomi's mouth.
...who am I kidding, ESPECIALLY because she's lying next to me taking screenshots of Yoshizawa Hitomi's mouth.
EDIT EDIT another good thing ok ok I'm a weiner but it's made me really happy
+ /cgl/ today... what? There's a Cute Couples of Cosplay thread going on on /cgl/ right now and they've had nothing but nice things to say about me and Ame and oh god we are just absolutely screaming I can't even. ;;_____;; idk if any of you guys have a hand in that but flbflbflf way to be adorable, /cgl/. I-I... got called a chivalrous knight ;;;;;;; ♥♥