you and me will bloom on the windowsill.
I STARTED THIS ENTRY LAST NIGHT and am just getting around to finishing it. Oops. 9__6
Anyway. Thank you guys for the comforts about Teaspoon. ♥ I really need to empty out her tank and hide it somewhere, I keep looking at it and expecting her to crawl out from her igloo or something. Sigh.
I.. okay, I really hesitate to share this, because I am incredibly self-conscious about my art. It's why I stopped drawing like two years ago, but I've been trying to get back into it and actually improve lately. I really hate drawing people, and I'm really awful at coloring digitally, but I'm making myself practice both. Aaand Saturday night, I partook in some art therapy after burying Teaspoon and managed to crank this business out in like two hours. I'm.. not rly proud of it but it's the first art I've produced in a long time that's fit for any sort of viewing, so I figured I'd share I guess. Goddamn I have no confidence in my art, ick. Anyway uhhh so there's that, please be gentle.
Max and I saw Bolt last night.. and it was everything I'd hoped it would be since I first heard about it last year. Pixar, you done good again. I pretty much choked up in the first scene when Penny picks out Bolt to take home and it was all downhill from there. Iiii cried a lot, which I expected to. It was really fabulously adorable.. especially so as a dog, cat and hamster owner. ♥
Afterwards, I was.. still weepy. For a long time. Like, the entirety of last night. As much as I loved the movie, it made me miss Cody all over again, and hard. Just.. I don't know. I'm not sure anyone who's not a dog person can really get the whole.. absence of that force. I feel weird trying to explain it to people who don't get it, but I just.. still feel like part of my life is incomplete without a dog in it. Almost two years since his death. I still don't know how to deal with being without him.
I talk about how much I want another dog but really, I'm so worried that any dog I have after Cody won't live up to how he was. I don't know that any other dog could equal the level of understanding we shared or the bond we had. I say I want another dog but.. really, I just want my dog.
I'm so frustrated because when Ame was here, we came across a picture of me and Cody from when we were young, but I can't for the life of me remember where we found it. I have searched everywhere it could possibly be and I cannot find it. Will need to locate it in photo form when I go home.
Sometimes I wonder if I hold onto things I'm supposed to let go of longer than is natural..
I seem to have finally pulled myself out of my funk today.. I pray it lasts. Rehearsal for our Theater group was awesome (and followed by group reminiscing about Nicktoons which won them even more points), it wasn't too cold to run errands and I made a friend tonight which always pleases me.
Really excited to go home this weekend. Will be heading to Connecticut for Thanksgiving with the family on Wednesday straight from classes.. which I admit I'm dreading because first Thanksgiving without Grandma is going to be depressing as hell. But Friday morning we're heading home and I get to see my people. ♥ (and my kitties ajkdhsk I need to cuddle something fuzzy so bad.)
And in other happy news, omg wtf weddings. Late congrats to Jessie and Adam because holy crap that is so awesome. ♥ Also Leslie, one of two other girls I graduated with who also came out after high school (SERIOUSLY, THERE ARE THREE OF US. That is.. statistically unsound, dammit) is engaged to her girlfriend apparently! Seeing those two facebook engagement announcements literally back to back made me smile big, I should have screencapped it.
Tilly & The Wall are really freakin' good and I can't believe I'm just discovering them.
My bedtime since Friday night has been roughly between 6am and 6:30am. I should really work on that. Yech.
Anyway. Thank you guys for the comforts about Teaspoon. ♥ I really need to empty out her tank and hide it somewhere, I keep looking at it and expecting her to crawl out from her igloo or something. Sigh.
I.. okay, I really hesitate to share this, because I am incredibly self-conscious about my art. It's why I stopped drawing like two years ago, but I've been trying to get back into it and actually improve lately. I really hate drawing people, and I'm really awful at coloring digitally, but I'm making myself practice both. Aaand Saturday night, I partook in some art therapy after burying Teaspoon and managed to crank this business out in like two hours. I'm.. not rly proud of it but it's the first art I've produced in a long time that's fit for any sort of viewing, so I figured I'd share I guess. Goddamn I have no confidence in my art, ick. Anyway uhhh so there's that, please be gentle.
Max and I saw Bolt last night.. and it was everything I'd hoped it would be since I first heard about it last year. Pixar, you done good again. I pretty much choked up in the first scene when Penny picks out Bolt to take home and it was all downhill from there. Iiii cried a lot, which I expected to. It was really fabulously adorable.. especially so as a dog, cat and hamster owner. ♥
Afterwards, I was.. still weepy. For a long time. Like, the entirety of last night. As much as I loved the movie, it made me miss Cody all over again, and hard. Just.. I don't know. I'm not sure anyone who's not a dog person can really get the whole.. absence of that force. I feel weird trying to explain it to people who don't get it, but I just.. still feel like part of my life is incomplete without a dog in it. Almost two years since his death. I still don't know how to deal with being without him.
I talk about how much I want another dog but really, I'm so worried that any dog I have after Cody won't live up to how he was. I don't know that any other dog could equal the level of understanding we shared or the bond we had. I say I want another dog but.. really, I just want my dog.
I'm so frustrated because when Ame was here, we came across a picture of me and Cody from when we were young, but I can't for the life of me remember where we found it. I have searched everywhere it could possibly be and I cannot find it. Will need to locate it in photo form when I go home.
Sometimes I wonder if I hold onto things I'm supposed to let go of longer than is natural..
I seem to have finally pulled myself out of my funk today.. I pray it lasts. Rehearsal for our Theater group was awesome (and followed by group reminiscing about Nicktoons which won them even more points), it wasn't too cold to run errands and I made a friend tonight which always pleases me.
Really excited to go home this weekend. Will be heading to Connecticut for Thanksgiving with the family on Wednesday straight from classes.. which I admit I'm dreading because first Thanksgiving without Grandma is going to be depressing as hell. But Friday morning we're heading home and I get to see my people. ♥ (and my kitties ajkdhsk I need to cuddle something fuzzy so bad.)
And in other happy news, omg wtf weddings. Late congrats to Jessie and Adam because holy crap that is so awesome. ♥ Also Leslie, one of two other girls I graduated with who also came out after high school (SERIOUSLY, THERE ARE THREE OF US. That is.. statistically unsound, dammit) is engaged to her girlfriend apparently! Seeing those two facebook engagement announcements literally back to back made me smile big, I should have screencapped it.
Tilly & The Wall are really freakin' good and I can't believe I'm just discovering them.
My bedtime since Friday night has been roughly between 6am and 6:30am. I should really work on that. Yech.