prepare for four days worth of posts ALL IN ONE sorry this thing is HUEG
My poor little heart, and my empty arms.
And then that's it. On my own again.. in my room I was so comfortable sharing with another. Our kitchen sink is filled with dishes, my room is messy and my sheets are all tangled in themselves. I keep expecting to hear her voice, or reach out and have her close.. several days of closeness like that will do this. Ow.
I rapidly withdrew from the Internet when she got here, so I didn't even actually announce where I went or why. Ame/sugar_and_synth has been visiting since Thursday night, we got back from dropping her off at the airport a couple of hours ago. It was an incredible weekend.
Here, have a very long post.
☂ Thursday Max and I were a bit late to the airport picking her up. I cooked dinner for us when we got home. Our music, flowers, a candle and champagne (thanks, Melissa) may have been involved.
We took some cuter ones but you guys get this one for now. DIS GIRL.
☂ Friday She slept while I was in class (though I napped with her between and after classes for a while.) When we finally got up, we headed downtown to get more hairdye, a toy or two and dinner.
And thennn.. there were party times. Oh lord. At first it was Ame, Nellie/albatross_enid, Max/testsofthemuse, Zaq, Winson, Lisa and I. Then Lisa got sick because of her meds so Winson took her home. Lauren/kittyling, Cathy/versiondefected and Mika/malika showed up eventually, and drank began. Winson came back over later. It was.. pretty ridiculous. Max's most accurate quote was something about how "you invited over several people from the Internet who apparently do not drink ever." Or are, at the very least, extraordinary lightweights.
Eventually Winson and Zaq headed out. And then there were six girls and a Max. And then there were six girls in bras (LAUREN ALWAYS STARTS IT I SWEAR TO GOD) and a Max. And finally, there were six girls in bras and a shirtless Max. Can we talk about how he is the best dude? Anyway, it was. Completely ridiculous and amazing. There are so many pictures and I'm pretty sure they should never be on the Internet ever, at least not until we can all MS Paint shirts back onto our bodies.
The night's greatest triumph: Ame and me both kissing my straight roomate ILU NELLIE We accidentally that entire party. Was this bad? No, this was not bad at all. We are all such winners.
Best party or bestest party? Oh god really don't know if these photos will ever be on the Internet but they're SO GOOD.
☂ Saturday We all headed into Northampton for the Anti-Prop 8 rally. Mika departed when we got there but we were joined by zacku for a bit. The rally was.. amazing. Not as huge as the ones in big cities, but it was warm and personal and filled with so much love. There were drums and The Raging Grannies singing and amazing speakers and several hundred people.. straight, gay (mostly lesbian), college kids, older couples, kids, families, dogs.. incredible. No counter-protesters. Just people honking in support as they drove by.
It was incredibly inspirational.. not to mention completely emotionally overwhelming to even have my girl with me there.. I got super misty-eyed on several occasions. I wish it had lasted longer, but really.. it was great. A complete success. Makes me so hopeful for the future. ♥
Also, saw Craiglist Sarah there! The one I went on a few dates with last year. It was sort of really awkward.. so I left her a Facebook comment afterwards telling her it was good to see her, heh. Also saw that girl Binh who I think had a little thingy for me last year.. oyyyy vey, my life. Haha.
And thennn.. there was delicious Japanese foodings and exploring NoHo and taking dumb photobooth pictures.. in the same booth I took photos with a lover in two years ago. Life.
That night, Lauren and Cathy came back over and.. Ame and I put our worst idea ever into motion.
Some time ago, we concocted the idea of dyeing my hair blue and doing some crazy hairstyling and then.. taking stupid pictures that just miiiight have had something to do with.. uh.. Gurren Lagann genderswapping. Like uh. Like this. Just for the hell of it.
During the getting-ready process we realized it may not have been one of our better ideas, but we went for it anyway. Finally we finish up and Lauren and Cathy are like "AHAHAH ohhhh you guys. ..... wait, we want to play too." And so we all ended up coming up with horrible ten minute Boobenn Grabban genderswap "cosplays." And then took a lot of dumb photos and Photobooth pictures. And for as much as I hate us for it, I LOVE IT. Oh god it was way too much fun. We are completely ridiculous.
WHY DID WE THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA. Myself as Boobmina, Ame as Tittan, Cathy as Rossheiu, and Lauren as Man-non. I. Hate and love us.
I uh. Also don't know how I feel about these ever making it to the Internet. I may make a more secure filter. Also there was too much sideboob for this to be here without censor. THIS WEEKEND WAS BASICALLY BRAS CON.
☂ Sunday Ame and I seriously did nothing except sleep in way too late, dick around on the Internet together, play Banjo-Kazooie, eat curry fries that Nellie made, and cuddle. It was a fantastic day.
We didn't take any Photobooth pictures that day, so have a really quality Myspace message I got instead. I responded with "sure bb ur just my type when n wher" or something and actually got a legit response and now I'm just ignoring it ahahah why did I do that
☂ Today We got up excruciatingly early and headed to my Japanese class.. SO GLAD WE DID. Ame now understands my deep love for Koyama-sensei and my retarded class. We pretty much died because Koyama-sensei kept saying "brothers" which is essentially "bludders" and pretty much the best thing ever. Also __kaze__ got to meet her for two seconds, ahaha.
It snowed a little on the walk back to my dorm. ♥
ALSO WE SAW KEVIN, MY CHUBBY BEARDED FIVE DAYS HIGH SCHOOL BOYFRIEND. I laugh every single time we see each other because ahahah we dated for five days in high school and now he is chubby and bearded so I was glad to share that hilarity with Ame as well.
And then.. there was a bit of stress getting her all packed up, but.. Max picked us up, and we headed out. Fell asleep on each other on the way to the airport. Saw her off. And now I'm here.
Sigh.
In short, this weekend was incredible. In slightly longer.. this weekend reminded me, as our time together always does, why I got myself involved in something like this in the first place. This weekend held some really important, amazing conversations about the future.. and as frightening as it all still is, I know this is an aspect of my future I'm sure of. She said "this is the feeling people search their whole life for," and I think she's right. Sometimes I get scared because I don't know what it will mean for me that I've found that feeling so early in my life, but I know that whatever happens, this is worth coming back to and fighting for.
On a simpler note, everything is just so much better with her by my side. Never have I been so completely and entirely comfortable, open and honest with another human being. We compliment each other way too perfectly, and as soon as she leaves I can't help but feel this.. absence of completion. Already I miss the smiles and the shared laughter and how well we fit into each others' arms no matter what position we're cuddling in (seriously, it's ridic.) It just seems that.. no matter where we go.. California, New Jersey, Massachusetts.. we fit pretty damn easily into each others' lives. And I really think that's pretty amazing.
I AM DONE MUSHING FOR NOW I PROMISE I'm sorry you guys have had to see so much of it lately agagaggag vag vag vag
So now I'm sitting around cuddling Figment and listening to my epic amount of beautiful new Hardcore she gave me, being a mush.
In other news, I feel very different with blue hair than I did with purple or blonde. I feel more boyish and a bit more confident and even cocky. I'm even more curious to explore other haircolors in the future to see what aspects of my personality they bring out! Interesting.
Also I cannot find my skldjsklfjsklgjdl phone charger and my phone's on low battery! Ugh.
I should.. probably get to doing laundry and washing dishes and cleaning everything up. Maybe when I wake up tomorrow morning, it'll be last Friday again. .-.
And then that's it. On my own again.. in my room I was so comfortable sharing with another. Our kitchen sink is filled with dishes, my room is messy and my sheets are all tangled in themselves. I keep expecting to hear her voice, or reach out and have her close.. several days of closeness like that will do this. Ow.
I rapidly withdrew from the Internet when she got here, so I didn't even actually announce where I went or why. Ame/sugar_and_synth has been visiting since Thursday night, we got back from dropping her off at the airport a couple of hours ago. It was an incredible weekend.
Here, have a very long post.
☂ Thursday Max and I were a bit late to the airport picking her up. I cooked dinner for us when we got home. Our music, flowers, a candle and champagne (thanks, Melissa) may have been involved.
We took some cuter ones but you guys get this one for now. DIS GIRL.
☂ Friday She slept while I was in class (though I napped with her between and after classes for a while.) When we finally got up, we headed downtown to get more hairdye, a toy or two and dinner.
And thennn.. there were party times. Oh lord. At first it was Ame, Nellie/albatross_enid, Max/testsofthemuse, Zaq, Winson, Lisa and I. Then Lisa got sick because of her meds so Winson took her home. Lauren/kittyling, Cathy/versiondefected and Mika/malika showed up eventually, and drank began. Winson came back over later. It was.. pretty ridiculous. Max's most accurate quote was something about how "you invited over several people from the Internet who apparently do not drink ever." Or are, at the very least, extraordinary lightweights.
Eventually Winson and Zaq headed out. And then there were six girls and a Max. And then there were six girls in bras (LAUREN ALWAYS STARTS IT I SWEAR TO GOD) and a Max. And finally, there were six girls in bras and a shirtless Max. Can we talk about how he is the best dude? Anyway, it was. Completely ridiculous and amazing. There are so many pictures and I'm pretty sure they should never be on the Internet ever, at least not until we can all MS Paint shirts back onto our bodies.
The night's greatest triumph: Ame and me both kissing my straight roomate ILU NELLIE We accidentally that entire party. Was this bad? No, this was not bad at all. We are all such winners.
Best party or bestest party? Oh god really don't know if these photos will ever be on the Internet but they're SO GOOD.
☂ Saturday We all headed into Northampton for the Anti-Prop 8 rally. Mika departed when we got there but we were joined by zacku for a bit. The rally was.. amazing. Not as huge as the ones in big cities, but it was warm and personal and filled with so much love. There were drums and The Raging Grannies singing and amazing speakers and several hundred people.. straight, gay (mostly lesbian), college kids, older couples, kids, families, dogs.. incredible. No counter-protesters. Just people honking in support as they drove by.
It was incredibly inspirational.. not to mention completely emotionally overwhelming to even have my girl with me there.. I got super misty-eyed on several occasions. I wish it had lasted longer, but really.. it was great. A complete success. Makes me so hopeful for the future. ♥
Also, saw Craiglist Sarah there! The one I went on a few dates with last year. It was sort of really awkward.. so I left her a Facebook comment afterwards telling her it was good to see her, heh. Also saw that girl Binh who I think had a little thingy for me last year.. oyyyy vey, my life. Haha.
And thennn.. there was delicious Japanese foodings and exploring NoHo and taking dumb photobooth pictures.. in the same booth I took photos with a lover in two years ago. Life.
That night, Lauren and Cathy came back over and.. Ame and I put our worst idea ever into motion.
Some time ago, we concocted the idea of dyeing my hair blue and doing some crazy hairstyling and then.. taking stupid pictures that just miiiight have had something to do with.. uh.. Gurren Lagann genderswapping. Like uh. Like this. Just for the hell of it.
During the getting-ready process we realized it may not have been one of our better ideas, but we went for it anyway. Finally we finish up and Lauren and Cathy are like "AHAHAH ohhhh you guys. ..... wait, we want to play too." And so we all ended up coming up with horrible ten minute Boobenn Grabban genderswap "cosplays." And then took a lot of dumb photos and Photobooth pictures. And for as much as I hate us for it, I LOVE IT. Oh god it was way too much fun. We are completely ridiculous.
WHY DID WE THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA. Myself as Boobmina, Ame as Tittan, Cathy as Rossheiu, and Lauren as Man-non. I. Hate and love us.
I uh. Also don't know how I feel about these ever making it to the Internet. I may make a more secure filter. Also there was too much sideboob for this to be here without censor. THIS WEEKEND WAS BASICALLY BRAS CON.
☂ Sunday Ame and I seriously did nothing except sleep in way too late, dick around on the Internet together, play Banjo-Kazooie, eat curry fries that Nellie made, and cuddle. It was a fantastic day.
We didn't take any Photobooth pictures that day, so have a really quality Myspace message I got instead. I responded with "sure bb ur just my type when n wher" or something and actually got a legit response and now I'm just ignoring it ahahah why did I do that
☂ Today We got up excruciatingly early and headed to my Japanese class.. SO GLAD WE DID. Ame now understands my deep love for Koyama-sensei and my retarded class. We pretty much died because Koyama-sensei kept saying "brothers" which is essentially "bludders" and pretty much the best thing ever. Also __kaze__ got to meet her for two seconds, ahaha.
It snowed a little on the walk back to my dorm. ♥
ALSO WE SAW KEVIN, MY CHUBBY BEARDED FIVE DAYS HIGH SCHOOL BOYFRIEND. I laugh every single time we see each other because ahahah we dated for five days in high school and now he is chubby and bearded so I was glad to share that hilarity with Ame as well.
And then.. there was a bit of stress getting her all packed up, but.. Max picked us up, and we headed out. Fell asleep on each other on the way to the airport. Saw her off. And now I'm here.
Sigh.
In short, this weekend was incredible. In slightly longer.. this weekend reminded me, as our time together always does, why I got myself involved in something like this in the first place. This weekend held some really important, amazing conversations about the future.. and as frightening as it all still is, I know this is an aspect of my future I'm sure of. She said "this is the feeling people search their whole life for," and I think she's right. Sometimes I get scared because I don't know what it will mean for me that I've found that feeling so early in my life, but I know that whatever happens, this is worth coming back to and fighting for.
On a simpler note, everything is just so much better with her by my side. Never have I been so completely and entirely comfortable, open and honest with another human being. We compliment each other way too perfectly, and as soon as she leaves I can't help but feel this.. absence of completion. Already I miss the smiles and the shared laughter and how well we fit into each others' arms no matter what position we're cuddling in (seriously, it's ridic.) It just seems that.. no matter where we go.. California, New Jersey, Massachusetts.. we fit pretty damn easily into each others' lives. And I really think that's pretty amazing.
I AM DONE MUSHING FOR NOW I PROMISE I'm sorry you guys have had to see so much of it lately agagaggag vag vag vag
So now I'm sitting around cuddling Figment and listening to my epic amount of beautiful new Hardcore she gave me, being a mush.
In other news, I feel very different with blue hair than I did with purple or blonde. I feel more boyish and a bit more confident and even cocky. I'm even more curious to explore other haircolors in the future to see what aspects of my personality they bring out! Interesting.
Also I cannot find my skldjsklfjsklgjdl phone charger and my phone's on low battery! Ugh.
I should.. probably get to doing laundry and washing dishes and cleaning everything up. Maybe when I wake up tomorrow morning, it'll be last Friday again. .-.