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Hiiii I haven't updated in a couple days. You haven't missed much. Anyway, important questions for kids going to Otakon!
First and foremost, does anyone have space in a room for me on Sunday night? I'm going to be flying down to Orlando for Disneycon on Monday morning but I gots nowhere to be Sunday night! Anyone got space?
And secondly, a further stretch, does anyone coming from the NY/NJ/tristate area have room for myself, shuriken and lecheporfavor in their car? We'd help with gas and things, obviously! If we can't find a ride it's not a huge deal, the Chinatown bus is only $20. But it'd be neat. I'm thinking Nai will be flying back out from Baltimore (we needs to discuss this~) and perhaps Mia can get a ride back up with Cole, but we can't all fit in his car on the way down there.. so it'd only be a one-way thing!
Aaanyway, so yeah. Life. I've been getting a lot of migraines lately, I think I might make an appointment with Allie's headache doctor. Tonight I got a bad one so I tried to nap it off, but instead of falling asleep I managed to achieve this bizarre half-asleep dream state. I'm not sure it qualifies as lucid dreaming, but that's the closest I can imagine it was.
I wasn't fully asleep, and I was aware of being in this state, but my mind was still behaving as it would if I were dreaming, with places I'd never been and people I don't typically think about appearing. I had some degree of control with what was going on in my dream, and a level of consciousness about it. I distinctly remember saying "Today's lunch is baked BEEEEEANS!" for some reason, but then thinking "Hey, I said that on purpose and was aware of saying it." It's really strange and hard to explain.
I've been in states like that before for short periods of time, but this time I was really aware of it. I find that the pseudo-dreams I have are often very sexual in nature, which is undoubtedly a manifestation of my subconscious sex drive because my conscious sex drive is pretty.. non-existent. (To give you an idea, I've gotten myself off once in the past.. three or four weeks? It really doesn't happen often at all.) Dreams like that tend to be more just sexual and not actually about a sex act. They tend to be ambiguously about pleasuring myself and general arousal, and I feel it, even in my pseudo-dream-state. It's very bizarre.
One of the stranger bits of the dreamthing was at one point when I realized consciously that I had to go to the bathroom but didn't want to wake myself up yet, so I found a bathroom in my dream-state and went through all the motions and sensations of actually peeing. Then I was like "Better? Fuck, no, still need to actually pee." So I made myself wake up and couldn't manage to get back to the dream-state once I lay back down.
It's sort of like when you're sleeping and you hear your alarm go off and then you dream that you turn it off, and it feels so real that you're not sure whether you've actually done it or not. It's really weird! I wish I could do it more often.
Hm, what else. I feel like there's other things I've been meaning to write about. Uhmmm.. working out! Abenobashi is my thinspiration. I don't think I'm going to show you guys exactly what I'm cosplaying until it's done though, haha.. oh lord. I've never done a skanky cosplay in my life, but this.. this definitely qualifies. It should be an adventure.
Welp, how about a meme?
Ask me a question about each of the following:
1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. LiveJournal
No matter how rude, sexual, or confidential. Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked.
Tomorrow! Gonna try to get up at a reasonable hour, work out for an hour, mail this damn doll, sell some vidyas, book more flights and put up some sales posts. My summer is so ridiculously busy, augh.
OH, that reminds me, that's another thing I meant to write about. There's pretty much no way I can afford Dragon*Con this year. I really wanted to try 'cause I've wanted to go for the past three years, but with all the traveling and everything I'm doing this summer, it just isn't realistic yet again. Why they gotta always do it at the end of the summer when I'm broke..? Anyway, sorry guys. I was looking forward to seeing OB kids especially. :<
Okay, a couple more sets of crunches and then sreep.
First and foremost, does anyone have space in a room for me on Sunday night? I'm going to be flying down to Orlando for Disneycon on Monday morning but I gots nowhere to be Sunday night! Anyone got space?
And secondly, a further stretch, does anyone coming from the NY/NJ/tristate area have room for myself, shuriken and lecheporfavor in their car? We'd help with gas and things, obviously! If we can't find a ride it's not a huge deal, the Chinatown bus is only $20. But it'd be neat. I'm thinking Nai will be flying back out from Baltimore (we needs to discuss this~) and perhaps Mia can get a ride back up with Cole, but we can't all fit in his car on the way down there.. so it'd only be a one-way thing!
Aaanyway, so yeah. Life. I've been getting a lot of migraines lately, I think I might make an appointment with Allie's headache doctor. Tonight I got a bad one so I tried to nap it off, but instead of falling asleep I managed to achieve this bizarre half-asleep dream state. I'm not sure it qualifies as lucid dreaming, but that's the closest I can imagine it was.
I wasn't fully asleep, and I was aware of being in this state, but my mind was still behaving as it would if I were dreaming, with places I'd never been and people I don't typically think about appearing. I had some degree of control with what was going on in my dream, and a level of consciousness about it. I distinctly remember saying "Today's lunch is baked BEEEEEANS!" for some reason, but then thinking "Hey, I said that on purpose and was aware of saying it." It's really strange and hard to explain.
I've been in states like that before for short periods of time, but this time I was really aware of it. I find that the pseudo-dreams I have are often very sexual in nature, which is undoubtedly a manifestation of my subconscious sex drive because my conscious sex drive is pretty.. non-existent. (To give you an idea, I've gotten myself off once in the past.. three or four weeks? It really doesn't happen often at all.) Dreams like that tend to be more just sexual and not actually about a sex act. They tend to be ambiguously about pleasuring myself and general arousal, and I feel it, even in my pseudo-dream-state. It's very bizarre.
One of the stranger bits of the dreamthing was at one point when I realized consciously that I had to go to the bathroom but didn't want to wake myself up yet, so I found a bathroom in my dream-state and went through all the motions and sensations of actually peeing. Then I was like "Better? Fuck, no, still need to actually pee." So I made myself wake up and couldn't manage to get back to the dream-state once I lay back down.
It's sort of like when you're sleeping and you hear your alarm go off and then you dream that you turn it off, and it feels so real that you're not sure whether you've actually done it or not. It's really weird! I wish I could do it more often.
Hm, what else. I feel like there's other things I've been meaning to write about. Uhmmm.. working out! Abenobashi is my thinspiration. I don't think I'm going to show you guys exactly what I'm cosplaying until it's done though, haha.. oh lord. I've never done a skanky cosplay in my life, but this.. this definitely qualifies. It should be an adventure.
Welp, how about a meme?
Ask me a question about each of the following:
1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. LiveJournal
No matter how rude, sexual, or confidential. Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked.
Tomorrow! Gonna try to get up at a reasonable hour, work out for an hour, mail this damn doll, sell some vidyas, book more flights and put up some sales posts. My summer is so ridiculously busy, augh.
OH, that reminds me, that's another thing I meant to write about. There's pretty much no way I can afford Dragon*Con this year. I really wanted to try 'cause I've wanted to go for the past three years, but with all the traveling and everything I'm doing this summer, it just isn't realistic yet again. Why they gotta always do it at the end of the summer when I'm broke..? Anyway, sorry guys. I was looking forward to seeing OB kids especially. :<
Okay, a couple more sets of crunches and then sreep.