whisper from miles away.
I want to scream it from rooftops or scrawl it on walls or tattoo it all over myself. Instead it pulses and aches in each heartbeat and silently oozes from every pore in my body 'cause it's got nowhere else to go and it needs to be out, even if no one knows it's there. I hate and love this.
Tomorrow morning, we leave for Savannah. Sunday is the funeral. Coming back Tuesday or Wednesday. This, I can say definitively, I do not care for one bit. I've been doing just fine but I know as soon as I see my grandfather sad and I let myself start reminiscing (something I've been keeping myself from doing) I'm going to completely lose it.
Edit Oh, also? I have tonsilitis which is why it has felt like I've been gargling razorblades. Actual quotes:
Dr. Cohen (bless his old Jewish Canadian soul): Your tonsils are in love! They're kissing.
Me Yeah, I'd.. gotten the feeling they'd gotten to be friends.
Most def what I needed right now. Totarry radikuu.
Tomorrow morning, we leave for Savannah. Sunday is the funeral. Coming back Tuesday or Wednesday. This, I can say definitively, I do not care for one bit. I've been doing just fine but I know as soon as I see my grandfather sad and I let myself start reminiscing (something I've been keeping myself from doing) I'm going to completely lose it.
Edit Oh, also? I have tonsilitis which is why it has felt like I've been gargling razorblades. Actual quotes:
Dr. Cohen (bless his old Jewish Canadian soul): Your tonsils are in love! They're kissing.
Me Yeah, I'd.. gotten the feeling they'd gotten to be friends.
Most def what I needed right now. Totarry radikuu.