this is the way that we love, like it's forever. then live the rest of our lives, but not together.
Well, farts. I still find myself regretting my mistakes of 2007. I'm finally changing and fixing my problems now, but months too late.
I guess that's life, yeah?
I should be proud of myself for finally making these necessary changes in my behavior but instead I'm just discouraged by how long it's taken for me to actually make them. I wonder if I'll always be like this, having to make the same mistake over and over before I realize how much I need to fix it.
But I mean.. I don't know. One can't be expected to learn from a mistake as they're making it, right? It takes time. And logically, if the behavior was corrected, it would be evident the next time one encounters a similar situation, yeah? I wish that didn't negate the value of the first experience, because the change wouldn't have been made had the first experience not had such an impact. Right? That does make some sort of sense, right? ._.
This song reminds me of the damp, grey days of early spring in Massachusetts last year. I can't believe I'll be back there in like, five days. I wonder how different it will feel. I hope I'm ready to make changes in my academic behavior now too. I think I can do it this time.
2007 was a year of learning experiences and heartwrenching pain and ineffable joy. There are so many things I wish I could start over from the beginning on, and not make so many mistakes with. But without those mistakes, no growth can happen. I wish I had grown sooner, but I know I'm not going to make the same mistakes again and.. goddamn, I just wish that counted for more.
I'm going to go shower so my eyes look less puffy and then go spend the day with my friends.
I guess that's life, yeah?
I should be proud of myself for finally making these necessary changes in my behavior but instead I'm just discouraged by how long it's taken for me to actually make them. I wonder if I'll always be like this, having to make the same mistake over and over before I realize how much I need to fix it.
But I mean.. I don't know. One can't be expected to learn from a mistake as they're making it, right? It takes time. And logically, if the behavior was corrected, it would be evident the next time one encounters a similar situation, yeah? I wish that didn't negate the value of the first experience, because the change wouldn't have been made had the first experience not had such an impact. Right? That does make some sort of sense, right? ._.
This song reminds me of the damp, grey days of early spring in Massachusetts last year. I can't believe I'll be back there in like, five days. I wonder how different it will feel. I hope I'm ready to make changes in my academic behavior now too. I think I can do it this time.
2007 was a year of learning experiences and heartwrenching pain and ineffable joy. There are so many things I wish I could start over from the beginning on, and not make so many mistakes with. But without those mistakes, no growth can happen. I wish I had grown sooner, but I know I'm not going to make the same mistakes again and.. goddamn, I just wish that counted for more.
I'm going to go shower so my eyes look less puffy and then go spend the day with my friends.