God, i feel so very lousy
~its all a roller coaster from here on out. wish i could have some comfort or some way of knowing how to deal. get it through my thick stupid overmotional head. hate it.~
~how many mistakes can one person make in a month. good grief.~
~"let death come early"...giggles. i sorta kinda miss it.~
~i really hate being an insomniac sometimes.~
~i had a nightmare that my groom left me at the alter. i was looking around and couldnt find him anywhere, i was asking, where is he?...i think im really going to be alone my whole life.~
~no time for play. just companionship.~
~cj isnt as comforting as i thought she would be~
~k, ill shut up now. starting to hate this entry...who else but me? wheres that positive...cant find it...please let me find it soon, im going nuts~
p.s.
stephen, please come home soon, whether you know it or not, or no matter how often you see me or visa versa, im comforted and so relaxed with you below me. i miss you. i care so much for you.
~how many mistakes can one person make in a month. good grief.~
~"let death come early"...giggles. i sorta kinda miss it.~
~i really hate being an insomniac sometimes.~
~i had a nightmare that my groom left me at the alter. i was looking around and couldnt find him anywhere, i was asking, where is he?...i think im really going to be alone my whole life.~
~no time for play. just companionship.~
~cj isnt as comforting as i thought she would be~
~k, ill shut up now. starting to hate this entry...who else but me? wheres that positive...cant find it...please let me find it soon, im going nuts~
p.s.
stephen, please come home soon, whether you know it or not, or no matter how often you see me or visa versa, im comforted and so relaxed with you below me. i miss you. i care so much for you.