i really enjoy the taste of peanut butter...perhaps too much
~i did something rather incredible this morning. i sat outside and listened to the rain. i wonder what it would be like if we didnt have the pavement and the metal and the everything else manmade to distract us from its true sound. i wonder what it would be like to be in the air, just me in the air listening to just the rain. i wonder if it would be silent or if there would be the sound of the raindrops bumping into each other, instead of crashing to the ground. i bet it would be wonderful to experience the true nature of rain. i think rain will always be the most beautiful thing ever to me. its water, it smells wonderful, its sound is comforting beyond compare, swimming in it is wonderful, and it is calming, and serene.~
~showerings wonderful feeling disappears quite quickly when you go to work and return home smelling like pine sol, grease, and chicken. and it is quite rude to rev your engine in my ear, and then complain when i make a mistake in repeating your order. but it is magnanimous when you think to turn off your engine so i can hear you clearly, so that when i see you at the window, i say to you, "thank you so much for turning off your engine so i could hear you, that was so wonderful of you and it meant so much to me, thank you!"...and is it an acceptible thing in all work forces to slap girls butts with towel rags? someone tell me, it must be, because they dont seem to care. i wont get my paycheck until the week after Christmas. isnt that nice? i thought so.~
~i really really really a thousand more reallys....no a million...no a billion...no...infinite amount of reallys...miss and love you people.~
~the last hug i got was two days ago. now i know why i sleep with 30 or so stuffed animals. and why i actually, quite literally, have squeezed the stuffing out of some. perhaps a scary thought?...and why they are aften soaked with salt. and ink. and lead. and crystal lite. and peanut butter. this is when i change my sheets.~
~my heart is full of the second "r". and it is really killing my ability to function. my distractions are running thin. thank God for work.~
~even the thought of a prospective date isnt very comforting, or encouraging, or enough to cheer me up. considering the other dates ive been on in the past year and a half. im a little skeptic. and pessimistic. i hope i can keep the hope out of my head this time, so it doesnt ruin everything and hurt me like it always does.~
~i realized tonight how much i miss animals. im thinking of asking for a fish for Christmas. and naming him cooper.~
~although i must say, this is one of the times that ive gotten the most accomplished ever. i dont have the abilitiy to be lazy with so much time on my hands. it is kind of nice. to not have to worry.~
~Jesus' birthday is coming. i will sing in church, i will pray, i will not like my family, i will love my friends. i will participate in random acts of kindness, i will give unconditional love, i will ache. i will be lonely. i will be grateful that i have been saved. i will be thankful for angels. im all of these things all the time, what am i thinking?~
~i finally have enough money to get some presents. maybe you wont get them for Christmas, but i dont think it always has to be christmas to receive a gift that makes you feel loved. so be ready, yall:)~
~ALL my compassion~
~showerings wonderful feeling disappears quite quickly when you go to work and return home smelling like pine sol, grease, and chicken. and it is quite rude to rev your engine in my ear, and then complain when i make a mistake in repeating your order. but it is magnanimous when you think to turn off your engine so i can hear you clearly, so that when i see you at the window, i say to you, "thank you so much for turning off your engine so i could hear you, that was so wonderful of you and it meant so much to me, thank you!"...and is it an acceptible thing in all work forces to slap girls butts with towel rags? someone tell me, it must be, because they dont seem to care. i wont get my paycheck until the week after Christmas. isnt that nice? i thought so.~
~i really really really a thousand more reallys....no a million...no a billion...no...infinite amount of reallys...miss and love you people.~
~the last hug i got was two days ago. now i know why i sleep with 30 or so stuffed animals. and why i actually, quite literally, have squeezed the stuffing out of some. perhaps a scary thought?...and why they are aften soaked with salt. and ink. and lead. and crystal lite. and peanut butter. this is when i change my sheets.~
~my heart is full of the second "r". and it is really killing my ability to function. my distractions are running thin. thank God for work.~
~even the thought of a prospective date isnt very comforting, or encouraging, or enough to cheer me up. considering the other dates ive been on in the past year and a half. im a little skeptic. and pessimistic. i hope i can keep the hope out of my head this time, so it doesnt ruin everything and hurt me like it always does.~
~i realized tonight how much i miss animals. im thinking of asking for a fish for Christmas. and naming him cooper.~
~although i must say, this is one of the times that ive gotten the most accomplished ever. i dont have the abilitiy to be lazy with so much time on my hands. it is kind of nice. to not have to worry.~
~Jesus' birthday is coming. i will sing in church, i will pray, i will not like my family, i will love my friends. i will participate in random acts of kindness, i will give unconditional love, i will ache. i will be lonely. i will be grateful that i have been saved. i will be thankful for angels. im all of these things all the time, what am i thinking?~
~i finally have enough money to get some presents. maybe you wont get them for Christmas, but i dont think it always has to be christmas to receive a gift that makes you feel loved. so be ready, yall:)~
~ALL my compassion~