I am writing this to remind myself why I like myself...
What with all of the Steve crap and not being in my bellydancing classes, all my old self esteem issues have came crashing down on me. Along with that the fears for being a almost 30 yr old mom w/ 3 kids that does not want to be alone for life due to Steve wasting my young years. Its all like a crushing tide of I do not stand up to the standards society sets. but then I was going out yesterday dressed up to go out with my earrings on and all that that evening I got home caught myself in the mirror and was shocked OMG I am pretty. And you know what I am older looking but mature is not a bad thing and I am damn good looking even say so better looking then when I was young. So I am going to write down the things I like about myself so I can look at it when I am feeling that way again.
1. since I learnt about OCM my skin on face (and my body is getting there is ) is clear, gorgous and soft. My skin never looked this good its stunning movie star perfect skin now.
2. I have awesome Forest Green hazel eyes, that change colour with every emotion.
3. I have kick ass hair : My hair is smooth and shiny like a pantene commercial but its all my doing. People spend big money and time trying to make thier hair look like mine. It is also getting really nice and long and even getting a little fuller because of the vitamins.
4. I have a really pretty face. I know that is an insult thrown at big girls all the time but I do.
5. Because of how I carry my weight I have a set of really nice legs.
6. I also am a lot smaller then I once was and I do look good and have curves.
7. I have a great sense of style and what I like, what looks good on me , including makeup that almost no young person has down yet.
8. I am way more assured in my sensuality then I ever did as a 22 year old . (Yay bellydancing)
In none superficial things I am witty, intelligent, and just all around really cool. I Know who I am and what I want.
Now I just have to remember all this when I am feeling down.
1. since I learnt about OCM my skin on face (and my body is getting there is ) is clear, gorgous and soft. My skin never looked this good its stunning movie star perfect skin now.
2. I have awesome Forest Green hazel eyes, that change colour with every emotion.
3. I have kick ass hair : My hair is smooth and shiny like a pantene commercial but its all my doing. People spend big money and time trying to make thier hair look like mine. It is also getting really nice and long and even getting a little fuller because of the vitamins.
4. I have a really pretty face. I know that is an insult thrown at big girls all the time but I do.
5. Because of how I carry my weight I have a set of really nice legs.
6. I also am a lot smaller then I once was and I do look good and have curves.
7. I have a great sense of style and what I like, what looks good on me , including makeup that almost no young person has down yet.
8. I am way more assured in my sensuality then I ever did as a 22 year old . (Yay bellydancing)
In none superficial things I am witty, intelligent, and just all around really cool. I Know who I am and what I want.
Now I just have to remember all this when I am feeling down.