Body Image
I cant STAND the way i look sometimes. It literally makes me sick because I always feel like Im under constant scrutiny. All because of past experiances from when I was younger; being heavier really fucked me up now. Some days Im fine, but sometimes I just feel so uncomfortable. And I know I shouldnt be, but its something that bothers me everyday. I'd like to believe that it's quite unhealthy, because in all entirety it is.. But, Id also like to think that more than just myself have a problem with the way they look.
I dont have enough self control to go on a diet, and the truth is, if I lose anymore weight, I'd be borderlined unhealthy. But that still doesnt change my mind that I still think theres something wrong with me.
It's something that Im not open with at all, for the simple fact that its no one elses issue. It's mine. It just makes it hard to explain my actions from time to time.