I can't change my mind about the matter in itself, but I do understand you perfectly. It's how I'm forced to feel very often.
To me it is still more than a personal thing though; this is not only about him and his family. He could have gone and looked somewhere that was not in any way connected to his place in the football world. He has disappointed me as the Captain of the English NT, as captain of a team, any team. I don't understand how you can do certain things behind the back of your colleagues, your mates. This is my problem.
I know very well that all people are fallible. But if you represent so much to so many, if you're such an ideal... you can't do certain things, and I don't mean just things that are wrong, but things that are even more wrong in the circumstances because you are what you are, hope and grandness.
To me he's always ever been important as England's Captain and one of the outstanding players of the premier league, and he's just destroyed that from its fundaments. He's a bleak space now, I can't see anything brilliant in him anymore.
I do think HE needs to step up and hand over the armband. I think it would be the right gesture and reunite the England fans and team. But I know him well enough to know I don't think he will do that. He is an arrogant dick. (yes, and I still love him)
Maybe I feel in this case that he has betrayed me, in some way, personally, and I feel very strongly that people who do not have a personal stake in this have no right to judge. (the ONTD posts have made me physically ill) And I also thing that everyone has a right to feel what they do, but the cruelty and hate which comes from a place that has nothing to do with this situation is upsetting.
Then again, I guess the saddest part of me says "You know, this isn't new. We already knew this about him, why are we suddenly so surprised by it?" Why were we okay with him before and now he's suddenly a pariah? This story isn't even new. Those in and around Chelsea already knew it, anyway, the papers just weren't allowed to print it.
It's funny, because cheating is not something I approve of or would EVER do myself. I've had women who were horrible to me because they thought I would be after "their men", and it offended me that they would think that of me. Do not take your insecurities about your relationship and turn them into a moral judgment against me.
Anyway, I ramble. Thank you for listening. I know we have not always seen eye to eye, but you, unlike a lot of people, are able to look at situations and think rather than react.
To me it is still more than a personal thing though; this is not only about him and his family. He could have gone and looked somewhere that was not in any way connected to his place in the football world. He has disappointed me as the Captain of the English NT, as captain of a team, any team. I don't understand how you can do certain things behind the back of your colleagues, your mates. This is my problem.
I know very well that all people are fallible. But if you represent so much to so many, if you're such an ideal... you can't do certain things, and I don't mean just things that are wrong, but things that are even more wrong in the circumstances because you are what you are, hope and grandness.
To me he's always ever been important as England's Captain and one of the outstanding players of the premier league, and he's just destroyed that from its fundaments. He's a bleak space now, I can't see anything brilliant in him anymore.
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Maybe I feel in this case that he has betrayed me, in some way, personally, and I feel very strongly that people who do not have a personal stake in this have no right to judge. (the ONTD posts have made me physically ill) And I also thing that everyone has a right to feel what they do, but the cruelty and hate which comes from a place that has nothing to do with this situation is upsetting.
Then again, I guess the saddest part of me says "You know, this isn't new. We already knew this about him, why are we suddenly so surprised by it?" Why were we okay with him before and now he's suddenly a pariah? This story isn't even new. Those in and around Chelsea already knew it, anyway, the papers just weren't allowed to print it.
It's funny, because cheating is not something I approve of or would EVER do myself. I've had women who were horrible to me because they thought I would be after "their men", and it offended me that they would think that of me. Do not take your insecurities about your relationship and turn them into a moral judgment against me.
Anyway, I ramble. Thank you for listening. I know we have not always seen eye to eye, but you, unlike a lot of people, are able to look at situations and think rather than react.
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