I wont say i told ya so.. but.. I told ya so.
as with most things in my life that look too good to be true.
of course i got all excited about the car.. flipping crazy.. like.. unable to sleep until i got my questions answered etc.
so fuck all that positive thinking riotous bull shit because here come those negative waves damnit. i aint getting that damn car,.. it might be cold, and i might work in hell.. but despite what my body feels every night now, HELL AINT FROZEN OVER YET. so fuck it.. fuck being happy, fuck being positive about anything, cuz you know no matter however which way you look at it the glass is half fucking gone! empty or full bullshit dont matter.. theres half!
so fuck optimism.
i been up 20 some hours now worrying about life, dad, and some car i'll never own and im tired of it.
fuck consciousness.
sleep.
of course i got all excited about the car.. flipping crazy.. like.. unable to sleep until i got my questions answered etc.
so fuck all that positive thinking riotous bull shit because here come those negative waves damnit. i aint getting that damn car,.. it might be cold, and i might work in hell.. but despite what my body feels every night now, HELL AINT FROZEN OVER YET. so fuck it.. fuck being happy, fuck being positive about anything, cuz you know no matter however which way you look at it the glass is half fucking gone! empty or full bullshit dont matter.. theres half!
so fuck optimism.
i been up 20 some hours now worrying about life, dad, and some car i'll never own and im tired of it.
fuck consciousness.
sleep.