*sigh*
Blah blah blah blah blah...I'm talking to people, trying to tell them what's wrong...how I feel, but I don't see how they could possibly understand, because the only words I hear coming out of my own mouth are blah blah blah...You know the rest. I feel like I'm living in a dream -- or rather, a nightmare. Everything -- every emotion -- is in utter turmoil inside of me. I want to be sad, and, at times, I am. But at the same time, I don't want to be sad. I can't let him see me upset. He already feels bad -- I don't need to make him feel any worse. It's an interesting situation. He's upset because he hurt me (and I will admit that I am hurt) and I'm upset, not only because he hurt me, but also because he's upset. And I can't let him see me upset, because that will make him feel even more guilty than he already does. Ah, how twisted things are these days.
Well, I guess the only thing I can really do is keep him as a friend -- if he'll allow it. There have been those who have pushed me away after stuff like this has happened...I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
Well, I guess the only thing I can really do is keep him as a friend -- if he'll allow it. There have been those who have pushed me away after stuff like this has happened...I guess we'll just have to wait and see.