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Okay, so when I have a perfectly good reason to be mad, does it make sense to anyone that I would be? Am I just supposed to let everything roll off like water off a duck's back? Why is is that people assume that I am so good natured that I won't get mad about anything? And why is it that they get mad at me when I get mad at them for a perfectly understandable reason? And why is it that I am always expected to apologize for making the other person mad who's only mad because I'm mad at them? I didn't do anything wrong. I have every right in the world to be angry. So why on earth would someone be mad at me for being mad? It's like people don't think I'm capable of being angry. HELLO! I am an incredibly emotional person, and anger is one of my emotions. So why is it that no one ever expects me to get mad about everything? And when I do, why do they expect me to get over it quickly and APOLOGIZE to THEM. Yeah, right. Sorry, but that's not going to happen. I'm a peacemaker, but I'm not a pushover.
And then there are the people who are TRYING to get other people mad at me. I got mad at someone, and posted about it on LJ, and someone read it and reported to the person I wrote that I was mad at, and encouraging them to be mad at me. My thoughts are as follows: screw you. I had every right to be mad, so I'm not going to ask your forgiveness just because you didn't like some of the things I said. I didn't say anything downright cruel -- the point of that journal entry was to express my opinion and, more specifically, my anger with the whole situation. It doesn't make any sense to me that I should feel sorry for being angry with someone who made me feel like crap. I AM NOT SORRY, I WILL NEVER BE SORRY, so YOU CAN JUST GET OVER YOURSELVES AND DEAL WITH IT. If my anger was unreliable -- if it had no base or reasonable source, I would understand their anger with me, but I have a reason to be angry, so I will NOT apologize. Period. Take it or leave it. It's not my problem.
And then there are the people who are TRYING to get other people mad at me. I got mad at someone, and posted about it on LJ, and someone read it and reported to the person I wrote that I was mad at, and encouraging them to be mad at me. My thoughts are as follows: screw you. I had every right to be mad, so I'm not going to ask your forgiveness just because you didn't like some of the things I said. I didn't say anything downright cruel -- the point of that journal entry was to express my opinion and, more specifically, my anger with the whole situation. It doesn't make any sense to me that I should feel sorry for being angry with someone who made me feel like crap. I AM NOT SORRY, I WILL NEVER BE SORRY, so YOU CAN JUST GET OVER YOURSELVES AND DEAL WITH IT. If my anger was unreliable -- if it had no base or reasonable source, I would understand their anger with me, but I have a reason to be angry, so I will NOT apologize. Period. Take it or leave it. It's not my problem.