meanwhile, back on the ranch
Ha. so this is home...
the place and time and exact combinations of smells sights tastes and sounds that i've been pining for after 3 weeks in the wilderness....*siiiiiiiiiigh*
There is too much write down that i will never remember. Tis a shame...i did however keep a journal on my TA trip, and it hink it saved my life. Not TA, the journal kiddies.
TA did not save me, nay, it probably brought me to within an inch of my sanity but I suppose that was the point.
Most of all i realized that i rely on people. I found this out at TA when all of the ones i know and love from CQC (my unit at least) and from school were separated from me, and i learned that again in florida this past week with my parents when i constantly kept wanting to just stare at people. fascinated by them and there humanitities. people do say the damndest things.
and i miss people. my posse people, and my not so posse people, i miss 'em all. and i hope i can see you all very soon...its only been a little bit more than a month since i've seen most of you but i still feel like its been years. ha. what a sentimental schmuck i am.
speaking of my schmuckyness...i ditched laX camp. am horrible person yes i know but given current state of family, and conditions of my mental health post-TA it really would not have been wise. And Amanda and Meghan i am truly sorry to leave you because i love you both, but i also know that you can do it yourselves. sorry/
must go.
lovin life. :) its a nice feeling.
the place and time and exact combinations of smells sights tastes and sounds that i've been pining for after 3 weeks in the wilderness....*siiiiiiiiiigh*
There is too much write down that i will never remember. Tis a shame...i did however keep a journal on my TA trip, and it hink it saved my life. Not TA, the journal kiddies.
TA did not save me, nay, it probably brought me to within an inch of my sanity but I suppose that was the point.
Most of all i realized that i rely on people. I found this out at TA when all of the ones i know and love from CQC (my unit at least) and from school were separated from me, and i learned that again in florida this past week with my parents when i constantly kept wanting to just stare at people. fascinated by them and there humanitities. people do say the damndest things.
and i miss people. my posse people, and my not so posse people, i miss 'em all. and i hope i can see you all very soon...its only been a little bit more than a month since i've seen most of you but i still feel like its been years. ha. what a sentimental schmuck i am.
speaking of my schmuckyness...i ditched laX camp. am horrible person yes i know but given current state of family, and conditions of my mental health post-TA it really would not have been wise. And Amanda and Meghan i am truly sorry to leave you because i love you both, but i also know that you can do it yourselves. sorry/
must go.
lovin life. :) its a nice feeling.