Thirteen Straight Hours
This is psychotic....I have been working on Chemistry four almost fourteen hours. I got out of English at 11:30 this morning after my English professor tore me a new one by commenting on my first draft. Apparently Im a good writer in the sense of being able to get my ideas across and bringing in research into my writing, but I am horrible with construction. He called me the ADD child of writing. I jump from topic to topic. So I get to work on my final draft this weekend and hope to god I improve. I think it has something to do with the fact that the only time I write anything without being forced to do so is when Im using LJ because low and behold Im going way off of subject. Anyhoo, I got out of English, got lunch and came right back here to study for my Chemistry test tomorrow. Fourteen hours of writing, rewriting, studying, and applying. I'm so sick of chemistry and I only hope that I remember all of this later this morning. I am damned determined to bring up this grade and I really dont care if I kill myself doing so. Megan was right when she told me that I had seriously changed if I was giving up. I get frustrated and say I am going to give up, but I dont have the heart to quit.
I'm starting to get used to this whole college thing. I dont get out very much...usually just to go to class, lunch, and go to the gym, but Im really getting along with my roommate, some of the people living around me and I have my friends to talk to when I get to the point when I just really need to vent. Hell I talk to them even when I dont need to vent. I realized that it is going to take a little while to get used to being away from home and I just have to go with the flow. Haha. Its kinda funny that that is what I say to everyone it took this long to take my own advice. Pretty much my only goal while I am down here is to bring up my grades and bring down my weight.
I dont know why but my appearance is really getting to me. Maybe it's because im constantly around these tiny little blondes or maybe its just because Im a chick, but it still bothers me. I talk to Sean about this and all can say is he loves me the way I am and it doesnt matter to him whether I gain or lose anything, but my thing is I want him to look at me and be proud to be dating me. I dont want to be an embarassment to him.
Well all in all I guess Im doing a lot better and thanks to all of those who help me out when Im stressed out. It really does mean a lot. Well I better run...I wanna get some sleep for this test tomorrow. Im probably going to be dead to the world this weekend making up for the lost sleep over the past three weeks, but feel free to drop a line if you want to. I promise I wont bite anyones head off for calling or IMing me. adios and farewell.
I'm starting to get used to this whole college thing. I dont get out very much...usually just to go to class, lunch, and go to the gym, but Im really getting along with my roommate, some of the people living around me and I have my friends to talk to when I get to the point when I just really need to vent. Hell I talk to them even when I dont need to vent. I realized that it is going to take a little while to get used to being away from home and I just have to go with the flow. Haha. Its kinda funny that that is what I say to everyone it took this long to take my own advice. Pretty much my only goal while I am down here is to bring up my grades and bring down my weight.
I dont know why but my appearance is really getting to me. Maybe it's because im constantly around these tiny little blondes or maybe its just because Im a chick, but it still bothers me. I talk to Sean about this and all can say is he loves me the way I am and it doesnt matter to him whether I gain or lose anything, but my thing is I want him to look at me and be proud to be dating me. I dont want to be an embarassment to him.
Well all in all I guess Im doing a lot better and thanks to all of those who help me out when Im stressed out. It really does mean a lot. Well I better run...I wanna get some sleep for this test tomorrow. Im probably going to be dead to the world this weekend making up for the lost sleep over the past three weeks, but feel free to drop a line if you want to. I promise I wont bite anyones head off for calling or IMing me. adios and farewell.