They have no idea
I just got back in from smoking a cigarette and some guy named john approached me....he was obviously drunk and we started talking about halloween and such. He got a little loud and my nieghbor came out bitching. Apparently the noise on the street was pissing her off and she knew she couldn't do anything about it so she waited for something she could bitch about. Well she throws her door open and looks directly at me knowing god damn good and well that i was speaking very softly and states that she has an 8am class and "you need to shut the hell up." Number one: the guy was yelling, she's never even heard me speak, and she's been giving me the eat shit and die look since i moved down here. Number two: Shes usually yelling outside or banging on the wall and I have come so close to telling her to stop it...but I don't because I'm a non confrontational person...what? Number three: how bad is it that the only way people will talk to me is because they are drunk and I just so happen to be smoking a cigarette at the time. I'm really not fitting in down here. Let's face it...I'm not a size three blonde who just so happened to get into this college by barely making the grade, senior year excluded. I feel like shit alot more often now. It almost seems that no matter what I do, I still manage to fail. An example of this would be my current GPA. I spent all of my time on my studies and I still manage to do horribly. My only decent grades are pysc and chem lab with a B. Passing lab doesnt mean very much if you are failing chem lecture. I spend three hours a day on Latin and still manage to be making a C, English i am currently making a C and Math is a wonderful D. God what is wrong with me. Another thing is my weight. I'm eating very healthy, no sodas, no junk food, and I have gained an ass of weight. Its really depressing for me. I'm kinda feeling the same way I did when I was in my junior year. I work my ass off and show no improvement. I'm almost beginning to wonder if I even have what it takes to do the whole college thing. Blah...cant sleep.