Gym
So, I've started taking Effexor, which really seems to be working out for me, I've got a part-time job recently that forces me to work on how I relate to the world outside of me without sending me into total panic, and I've lost 12 pounds in an effort to get healthier and at a good weight (8 more pounds to go!). So I'm at a decently good place that I can try to increase my productivity while staying calm. But I had this plan to start working out in the morning before work, instead of at night, because it will be more useful in burning calories during the rest of the day, and I actually went last Friday at 9:30 AM! Now the times I want to go at are the times that the gym is the least busy, so there was hardly any people there then and after working out I felt a lot better for the rest of the day. The snag was that the guy who works at the smoothie place is really cute and every time we see each other we give each other eyes and say hi flirtaciously, which is fine, but I am filled with dread before I know that I'm going to see him again. It wasn't so bad before because the smoothie place was on the second floor where I never go, but now they've moved it to the first floor just a little farther from the front desk. So I would be standing 3 feet away from him and have to walk by him to get the exercise floor. Now ok, I try to think positively, that hey if I talk to him, maybe we'd hit it off and get together, but I don't really want to deal with all those issues while feeling nasty and sweaty from working out, and worrying about whether or not I shouldn't have worn those tight pants. Also, I'm pretty sure he's a college student and younger than I am, and that is not what I want to be in contact with right now. So I've decided that until I get up the nerve, I am going back to the gym at night, so at least I get the exercise. :(