Not used my journal in soooo long.

[karmana]

Been working retail for almost 3 years.

This time has served me well to know what I want now.
To know that I am much happier being creative and being a spiritual being.

My relationship with B has been an interesting story.

I have learned i love him.
Even if he's unsure.
Even if we are currently not together or in the works of our 3rd reunion.

Not sure what he's thinking right now.
But I am giving him his space and time.

I do want to be with him.
But I want him to want to be with me and not just be with SOMEONE.

I deserve love, attention and respect.

Hope he thinks like this of me. I think so.

He is an awesome guy. He makes me laugh, he's creative, talented and super patient and usually pretty respectful.

I actually see ourselves living in a nice house either here or Austin.
Working in our independent, creative jobs.
Taking 2-3 vacations a year into new destinations.

Getting along nicely.

Loving each other nicely.

B, hope you are listening to my wish. the electronic waves of the internet.
Hope you are getting my love vibes.

I have a lot of love for me an for you.

LOVE, LOVE AND LOTS OF LOVE.