yay!
Yay! I set a new record since liz. I had a "gf" for 4 month's also named liz... and she said she loved me and wanted to be more then just friend's!.. at first her and i were like perfect for eachother we made eachother smile every moment was great... then it took a downward spin and she killed me with her hug's and kisses.. it was everything I wanted but, then I decided to stop thinking for myself and wanting her to be happy witch I got very "upset" (wanting something right?). bah. It was not a total blowout I made some friend's in the process.. got cought cheating for the first time with jen wasn't so bad my girlfriend loughed then later on made some sarcastic remark about it saying "I'd never getaway with it".. I know she set me up on that one but, it was still fun im a perv and Jen was in her 30's and married... and insisted I wasn't trouble.. really? that's my story. a beautiful red head asked me on a date! that was a great ego (when I was young I alway's wished I'd grow to be an egomaniac not a fireman or anything) boost until she relized I was not who she thought I was. I figure. then she screamed something about hating the dead.. and stood me up. woot! fell hard again i seem to fall alot latly.. I am dead.. I think of myself as a Zombie those are my favorite flik's. I eat off the living (depending). since I was young I walked around with my eyes open wide looking for something to kill. the only way to kill me is to chop off my head even then I still get back up sometimes like a chicken with it's head cut off. if you ever watched the sixth sence you might remember the qoute "I see dead people. they don't even know there dead. they only beleave what they want to beleave." whoa yep that's me! I beleaved every word liz told me but, anything anyone else has to say. I don't beleave a single word of it.. Im so sick of small talk.. Hey, how are you? then responce then dead silence.. Ice Breaker's! when there was no ice to begin with more like a steel wall seperating you from me GO AWAY! anyway's to end this story I must give prop's to my friend Tess she "feels me" guese she is going threw the same thing with her bf. another person that know's how I feel but, most likly will vanish or I'll eventualy die again.. who know's all I know is I can't spend everyday of my life with another friend for awhile.. im glad ver does not contact me every day like liz did.. when you spend everyday with someone it hurts much more when they become distance... and the pain realy suck's!.. word of advise never make commitment's to anyone! I did exactly what I was afraid to with her and I think she might have set me up for it.. I told her I was afraid of commitment next thing I know Im telling her I never want to loose her.. I said i could trust her completly next thing I know I can't trust a word she said.. I told her I did not want to leave her next thing I know.. I was running away.. and the only she could say is I like this song.. then she would email me some love song.. There is an image stuck in my head of her.. It's a Blonde with a Huge Knife and Electric bolt's of Lightning Flying out her eye socket's and AxeSpitter wrote on her forehead.. well that's all and just enough..