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I wonder when it started - me being SO BUSY all the time. I am busy, busy, BUSY. I have bachelor exams next month, I have nonstop work without vacations, and when I have tiny bit of free time, I have whole row of things to do. Sleeping seems to be a waste, just laying down on sofa for a while is a waste too, playing a stupid game of tetris for some relaxing is a super waste of time for me now. But I feel like I need simply that for years already. Just sleep, or simply lay down on sofa, or play stupid game. For whole month, non-stop. Or even more.
I don't feel stressed or sad over it, I just feel tired all the time. I wonder when I'll get some rest. Maybe after bachelor exam. I wont take vocation, because I need my jobpay as full as possible, but I will go home after work and fall face down in a bed. And do nothing till the morning. That's sounds heavenly.
In other news, todays Arashi release news was such a ldkfkldjfkjdlf Made my day and probably week. I even snatched LE of DVD and first press of album *_* So happy about it <3 Can't wait for them >_<
But also I feel very nervous. Since album is announced, soon will have concert schedule and it scares a shit out of me. Because I am going to arashi con this year, for serious, if I wont, I am going to have mental breakdown =_= I am Arashi's fan for 5 years already, and I wanted to go to their con from the beginning. I was planning to go there on their anniversary, very seriously, but at that time we got very serious financial problems because of economy crash. So, my concert were delayed. Now, I have 1000$ saved up for concert ticket alone and I really, really need to go this time. I want this freaking concert. So I am worried about schedule... that it might overlap with my bachelor exams, might be too soon and I wont be able to save up anough money for some shopping, or that my parents might freak out on me about japan situation x_x And the scariest part is the concert tickets, because 1000$ is a lot, but I am afraid it'll be not enough to buy a freaking ticket, or what if I wont be able to find any ticket at all (I don't mind pay more, actually!) and ae;okdfa;dfkpdasldplspdl SO SCARY. It's a bit unfortunate that we got album so soon, I wasn't expecting all this OHMYGODHOWTOGETARASHICONTICKET stress before my bachalor exam x_x I was hoping to stress over it after.
ah, sorry, I am ranting. need to go get some sleep.
I don't feel stressed or sad over it, I just feel tired all the time. I wonder when I'll get some rest. Maybe after bachelor exam. I wont take vocation, because I need my jobpay as full as possible, but I will go home after work and fall face down in a bed. And do nothing till the morning. That's sounds heavenly.
In other news, todays Arashi release news was such a ldkfkldjfkjdlf Made my day and probably week. I even snatched LE of DVD and first press of album *_* So happy about it <3 Can't wait for them >_<
But also I feel very nervous. Since album is announced, soon will have concert schedule and it scares a shit out of me. Because I am going to arashi con this year, for serious, if I wont, I am going to have mental breakdown =_= I am Arashi's fan for 5 years already, and I wanted to go to their con from the beginning. I was planning to go there on their anniversary, very seriously, but at that time we got very serious financial problems because of economy crash. So, my concert were delayed. Now, I have 1000$ saved up for concert ticket alone and I really, really need to go this time. I want this freaking concert. So I am worried about schedule... that it might overlap with my bachelor exams, might be too soon and I wont be able to save up anough money for some shopping, or that my parents might freak out on me about japan situation x_x And the scariest part is the concert tickets, because 1000$ is a lot, but I am afraid it'll be not enough to buy a freaking ticket, or what if I wont be able to find any ticket at all (I don't mind pay more, actually!) and ae;okdfa;dfkpdasldplspdl SO SCARY. It's a bit unfortunate that we got album so soon, I wasn't expecting all this OHMYGODHOWTOGETARASHICONTICKET stress before my bachalor exam x_x I was hoping to stress over it after.
ah, sorry, I am ranting. need to go get some sleep.