11 month anniversary of not writing!
So, after 11 months of not writing (or even really checking my friends' page...I guess I really abandoned this thing), I decided to get some things out in the open, because really, I hold these kinds of things in way too often.
I'm terrified.
Terrified of the real world being a mere 3 months, 11 days away, and having no clue what I want to do for a career, let alone for a job that I would be happy with.
Most of all, in the grand scheme of things, I'm terrified I won't amount to anything.
I worry about moving back home to a place that I have very few friends left from high school, starting anew.
Leaving my family in Pittsburgh is going to be quite the transition, but I think the challenge will be good for me.
I trust that I will be great at any job I apply myself to - I know my work ethic and determination will carry me through anything. I just want to be able to say what I want to do with myself after graduation, even just a field in general.
I know it will come in time, but with the deadline quickly approaching, I'm realizing that come April 28th, all I see is a big, vast open space, with no idea what to fill it in with.
I refuse to ever write about relationships on this, because everything gets so cryptic so "he" never sees...but, Goddamn. Still going on that one.
I'm terrified.
Terrified of the real world being a mere 3 months, 11 days away, and having no clue what I want to do for a career, let alone for a job that I would be happy with.
Most of all, in the grand scheme of things, I'm terrified I won't amount to anything.
I worry about moving back home to a place that I have very few friends left from high school, starting anew.
Leaving my family in Pittsburgh is going to be quite the transition, but I think the challenge will be good for me.
I trust that I will be great at any job I apply myself to - I know my work ethic and determination will carry me through anything. I just want to be able to say what I want to do with myself after graduation, even just a field in general.
I know it will come in time, but with the deadline quickly approaching, I'm realizing that come April 28th, all I see is a big, vast open space, with no idea what to fill it in with.
I refuse to ever write about relationships on this, because everything gets so cryptic so "he" never sees...but, Goddamn. Still going on that one.