venting
im going to vent. because i can.
i am sick and tired of myself. im sick of being dumb, im sick of being fat, im sick of being poor, im sick of my dad. ugh i can barely look at myself lately. and i keep fucking crying. boys smell. i hate work. i hate the heat. i dont want to grow up. i wish people would treasure every day they have at school because they are the best years of your life. well for me. hopefully this year will be good. it better be. im tired of waiting. this is it for me. 2007. my fucking year. so watch out.
and...
these people deserve medals for putting up with me and my ranting.
-jessa
-hayley
-bec taylor (always with the added taylor)
-shari
-laura
-moontz
-jenna
-mauzi
-zolan
-and pretty much anyone else who has spent more than 2 minutes talking to me in the last couple of months. love you guys. the one constant thing in my life. my friends.
im not making any promises. but besides the next three saturdays. im going to TRY and CUT BACK on my going out/alcohol consumption. as its putting a strain on my weight loss and bank account. i dont know if i can do it. but i can certainly have a go.
that is all.
much love.
i am sick and tired of myself. im sick of being dumb, im sick of being fat, im sick of being poor, im sick of my dad. ugh i can barely look at myself lately. and i keep fucking crying. boys smell. i hate work. i hate the heat. i dont want to grow up. i wish people would treasure every day they have at school because they are the best years of your life. well for me. hopefully this year will be good. it better be. im tired of waiting. this is it for me. 2007. my fucking year. so watch out.
and...
these people deserve medals for putting up with me and my ranting.
-jessa
-hayley
-bec taylor (always with the added taylor)
-shari
-laura
-moontz
-jenna
-mauzi
-zolan
-and pretty much anyone else who has spent more than 2 minutes talking to me in the last couple of months. love you guys. the one constant thing in my life. my friends.
im not making any promises. but besides the next three saturdays. im going to TRY and CUT BACK on my going out/alcohol consumption. as its putting a strain on my weight loss and bank account. i dont know if i can do it. but i can certainly have a go.
that is all.
much love.