Another Monday
Its 12:44 on a Monday afternoon and I am bored out of my mind. With the holiday this week, the buy center is really slow. I've had maybe 3 requests all day. The majority of my work today has been answering stupid questions for people that could actually look them up themselves.
Mom and I went over to Lia's on Saturday and babysat Riley and JoJo until last night. Yesterday was not only Riley's 3rd birthday, but it was the 2 year anniversary of Uncle Junior's death. It was not a good day for me. Riley was cranky because she didn't feel very well, and I was cranky because of her and because I was thinking about Uncle Junior. I really miss him. Part of me just wants to skip Thanksgiving again this year, but I know it will be good to be with the whole family. I just don't feel like celebrating anything. After dinner on Thursday, I'm going to drive down to Richland and spend the rest of the weekend with Becca and everyone. Tylynn isn't going to be very happy that I'm only spending 1 night with her in Ellensburg, but she'll get over it.
I've been feeling really down lately. I've been taking my meds, but I'm almost out. I'm thinking I'm going to need to have the doc up the dose. Someone called me a "Nobody" when talking to a friend one day. I know that person feels bad and didn't mean to say it, but now that is in the back of my head and I keep thinking…maybe I am a Nobody. I get smacked by this person every time I put myself down. Lord knows what they will do after reading this blog. I really don't care right now though. Maybe I deserve it…who knows. They keep hoping that by smacking me for putting myself down, that the message will sink in, but unfortunately it hasn't. I often feel like a "Nobody". I think that's why when they said it, it hit home and scared me. I'm not trying to make this person feel bad because I know they feel bad enough as it is. I'm not blaming this person and I have forgiven them so if you know who it is, don't go after them. Please!
I'm very excited to go see Becca this weekend. I always feel better when I'm with her. She doesn't let me think bad about myself. Plus everyone there makes me feel wanted, even if I know half the stuff they say is crap. They all really care and want to protect me which I think is wonderful to some extent.
So I don't know if I told you that my annoying office mate got fired! I don't have to listen to her talking to herself anymore. Now it is just me and Ross in our office and it is so much nicer and quieter. The only drawback is that all of Deb's work got dumped on Ross, and all of his work got passed on to me. It's been crazy the last couple of weeks for both of us. Trying to figure out what is going on with everything. I'm very glad this is a short work week.
I've been trying to focus on calling Becca more so she knows that I care. I hated it when she thought I didn't want to talk to her anymore. She is like my sister so I've been trying to call her at least once a day. We've even been talking online using web cams. I love being able to see everyone there while I talk to them.
Lia got a new cell phone, so she gave me her old iPaq (palm-pilot). It's really cool. I'm addicted to one of the games on there. I got the software from her this weekend so hopefully it will let me sync it to my home computer now. I'll have to try tonight.
Mom and I went shopping at WinCo foods last night. They have some really good prices there. I was able to get a Full Throttle Energy Drink for 98 cents instead of $1.29. I know where I'm going to stock up on Full Throttle. Hahaha….
The Disney movie "Enchanted" opens on Wednesday. I wonder if anyone in Richland would want to go see it with me this weekend. It's supposed to be really good. If not, I'll have to go see it myself when I get home.
Well, I should probably attempt to do something related to work. Talk to you all later.
XOXO,
Lena
Mom and I went over to Lia's on Saturday and babysat Riley and JoJo until last night. Yesterday was not only Riley's 3rd birthday, but it was the 2 year anniversary of Uncle Junior's death. It was not a good day for me. Riley was cranky because she didn't feel very well, and I was cranky because of her and because I was thinking about Uncle Junior. I really miss him. Part of me just wants to skip Thanksgiving again this year, but I know it will be good to be with the whole family. I just don't feel like celebrating anything. After dinner on Thursday, I'm going to drive down to Richland and spend the rest of the weekend with Becca and everyone. Tylynn isn't going to be very happy that I'm only spending 1 night with her in Ellensburg, but she'll get over it.
I've been feeling really down lately. I've been taking my meds, but I'm almost out. I'm thinking I'm going to need to have the doc up the dose. Someone called me a "Nobody" when talking to a friend one day. I know that person feels bad and didn't mean to say it, but now that is in the back of my head and I keep thinking…maybe I am a Nobody. I get smacked by this person every time I put myself down. Lord knows what they will do after reading this blog. I really don't care right now though. Maybe I deserve it…who knows. They keep hoping that by smacking me for putting myself down, that the message will sink in, but unfortunately it hasn't. I often feel like a "Nobody". I think that's why when they said it, it hit home and scared me. I'm not trying to make this person feel bad because I know they feel bad enough as it is. I'm not blaming this person and I have forgiven them so if you know who it is, don't go after them. Please!
I'm very excited to go see Becca this weekend. I always feel better when I'm with her. She doesn't let me think bad about myself. Plus everyone there makes me feel wanted, even if I know half the stuff they say is crap. They all really care and want to protect me which I think is wonderful to some extent.
So I don't know if I told you that my annoying office mate got fired! I don't have to listen to her talking to herself anymore. Now it is just me and Ross in our office and it is so much nicer and quieter. The only drawback is that all of Deb's work got dumped on Ross, and all of his work got passed on to me. It's been crazy the last couple of weeks for both of us. Trying to figure out what is going on with everything. I'm very glad this is a short work week.
I've been trying to focus on calling Becca more so she knows that I care. I hated it when she thought I didn't want to talk to her anymore. She is like my sister so I've been trying to call her at least once a day. We've even been talking online using web cams. I love being able to see everyone there while I talk to them.
Lia got a new cell phone, so she gave me her old iPaq (palm-pilot). It's really cool. I'm addicted to one of the games on there. I got the software from her this weekend so hopefully it will let me sync it to my home computer now. I'll have to try tonight.
Mom and I went shopping at WinCo foods last night. They have some really good prices there. I was able to get a Full Throttle Energy Drink for 98 cents instead of $1.29. I know where I'm going to stock up on Full Throttle. Hahaha….
The Disney movie "Enchanted" opens on Wednesday. I wonder if anyone in Richland would want to go see it with me this weekend. It's supposed to be really good. If not, I'll have to go see it myself when I get home.
Well, I should probably attempt to do something related to work. Talk to you all later.
XOXO,
Lena