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my parents are divorced and although they both always insist i not worry about them and being there for both of them always, i still do. i want to be there for my mom always and i feel guilty when i'm not. then i know my dad thinks it means something. it doesn't mean i love him less, it just means i think he needs me less. he's married. i don't want him to get depressed and wish we were around more. i'm pretty sure that only happens at christmas. i can't explain the way i feel torn. the last thing they would want is for me to feel this way but i can't help it.