The Most I Could Do Was To Just Blame Myself
-I hate not having anyone here. I need to talk to someone.. in real life. My whole family has been gone since I got home. It's so boring. I'm glad I usually have them around.
-Audition music is STUPID! I'm going crazy. It's going to stress me out again. It doesn't help that I have to play the cornet. It's not the same! Yeah.. I don't care too much about the chair I'm in, but I don't wanna humilate myself infront of the band director. I have to be 10 times better when I'm praciticing alone, because I get SO nervous.
-Do you ever have that feeling that you're lying to everyone, because you can't tell them what's going on? Somethings wrong. You can't describe it, but all you know is it hurts. Yeah, I have that feeling and I have NO clue why? I want to be 100% happy. I want to be happy on the outside AND on the inside. Don't worry.. I'm cool. I don't want everyone to think I'm depressed, because I'm for sure not! Hmm.. lol.. I'm so dumb.
-Enough of that negativity. I don't know why I'm complaining. I have an awesome life.
-I got a background finally! I think I like it, but I'm not sure. I'm going to get a new layout soon. It might take awhile, because LJ is being stupid. It keeps saying the service is temporarily read-only. Is anyone else having that problem? Possibly know how to fix it?
-You'll never believe this.. I'm going to be 15 1/2 this week. I'm SO excited. That means I have only 6 months til I can get my liscence. Yeah, a lot of my friends are already 16. I'm real cool.
I love you guys, so leave some love... if you can spare some for me. :-/
A hug would rock too.
-Audition music is STUPID! I'm going crazy. It's going to stress me out again. It doesn't help that I have to play the cornet. It's not the same! Yeah.. I don't care too much about the chair I'm in, but I don't wanna humilate myself infront of the band director. I have to be 10 times better when I'm praciticing alone, because I get SO nervous.
-Do you ever have that feeling that you're lying to everyone, because you can't tell them what's going on? Somethings wrong. You can't describe it, but all you know is it hurts. Yeah, I have that feeling and I have NO clue why? I want to be 100% happy. I want to be happy on the outside AND on the inside. Don't worry.. I'm cool. I don't want everyone to think I'm depressed, because I'm for sure not! Hmm.. lol.. I'm so dumb.
-Enough of that negativity. I don't know why I'm complaining. I have an awesome life.
-I got a background finally! I think I like it, but I'm not sure. I'm going to get a new layout soon. It might take awhile, because LJ is being stupid. It keeps saying the service is temporarily read-only. Is anyone else having that problem? Possibly know how to fix it?
-You'll never believe this.. I'm going to be 15 1/2 this week. I'm SO excited. That means I have only 6 months til I can get my liscence. Yeah, a lot of my friends are already 16. I'm real cool.
I love you guys, so leave some love... if you can spare some for me. :-/
A hug would rock too.