Love, Is It Worth What You Give?

[karleezie830]

Thiis weekend was pretty good...

-Tiff went with me to the Fury hockey game yesterday. We hung out with Scott and his cousin Josh. Yeah, I don't like him as more than a friend, so it was kind of weird, because he still likes me. I know it sounds really mean and everything, but seriously. He called SO fricken much. It just got old. I don't want a

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[tickles_8_29_90]

Jeanna I miss hanging out with you... your always hanging out with Tiff now a days... one of these days in the furture we need to hang out and do something... i feel sorry for like kinda not going to chruch as much because im with eric... i dont want to lose my friends because im spending way to much time with my boyfriend... yes i would do anything to hang out with eric, but then i would do anything to hang out with you... i miss the good ole days when we hung out... i feel like im missing out on a lot of things with you and my other friends... since eric's came along i feel like im losing each and every one of my friends one by one... im already losing kaitlyn and i feel like im losing you also... we dont talk much anymore like at school in the morning we dont really talk... its more of arguing... yesterday my life flashed before mi eyes... i was turning purple last night because i couldnt breathe... is started to think about what has been going one the past couple of months between me and mi amigos... i have changed alot in the past couple of months and some for the good and some for the bad... yea i know its weird for me to tell you all this but i feel bits and parts of me are missing... i have done so much with eric and if i lose him in the near furture or anytime after that i dont know what would happen... i may end up having an episode like i did last night... and that wouldnt be good cause i probly wouldnt beable to pull out of it... he helped me last night by trying to calm me down he did all he could to help me pull out of it... i was so scared i i wish i could have had some of my friends there to help me and to know that i was going ot be ok... but i have to get going i think this comment is pretty long... love you lotz... Bri

[karleezie830]

Hey Brit! First of all, you're not going to lose me. We may have our fights and it may seem like we're growing apart, but I'm always going to be here for you when you need me. I know I said crap about you and Eric and how I think you leave me for him or whatever. Well, it's because I realized something. I realized that it does hurt. It hurts when a guy seems to become more important than yourself, the friend. I appologized to you before, because I knew that it hurt you when I made Josh such a huge part of my life, but I had no idea how much it really did bug you. I know that it is a crappy feeling now. I have no reason to be mad at you though. You really aren't doing anything wrong. You love Eric and you love the time you spend with him. I know exactly how it feels. You like hanging out with your friends, but no one can top the feeling you get when you're with "him". Trust me, I know exactly how it feels. I know you don't wanna hurt me and you don't wanna lose your friend. Do you really think I could leave you? You stayed my friends through a year and half of this. I know it's going to be different with us now that you have Eric in your life, but I can see how happy you are with him and I don't want you to have to regret having that feeling. I really do think we should hang out though. It's so much fricken fun and I miss it a lot. I love you tons! <3 I'm here for ya babe!

[tickles_8_29_90]

i know... thnk you so much... yea i did stick by your side during the time you were with josh... yea it does hurt and its hard to deal with... im so happy that im with eric and if anything happens between me and him your the first one im going to crawl to crying my eyes out... he has told me that if he doesnt have self controll that he will leave me so he can have controll and i dont want that to happen so i have to tell him no for now on... thnk you so much love you lotz!!! <33 Brittany

[karleezie830]

WoOhoo! Be strong! ALl the consequences aren't worth one good time. Hmm.. yeah.

[tickles_8_29_90]

yea i kno... im scared about the consequences like big time i tell him im not scared because hes freaking out like big time and i dont wnat him to know im freaking out... but yea if anything happens to me and i am anything i would let you know and i would be asking you for what to do... oh did you hear about jacob he broke his leg and hes in a snowbaording accident... yea interesting.. well gotta go ttyl bye <33

[karleezie830]

You need to tell him how you feel though. I know he cares and wants to know what's going on with you. He deserves to know. DOn't even be afraid to tell me either.