I Must Move On

Jan 11, 2005 14:47

I'm not going to go back to my "old ways" or anything. That would be writing in my journal in every day. I just really need to get my feelings out. I knew this would happen one day. I wrote in my journal probably a couple weeks ago about how I didn't know what I'd do if I didn't have a boyfriend to rely on. Because.. you know.. I left my friends for guys too many times. Now it's happening. It's weird, because I don't know who to turn to. I know my girls will be there for me, but I feel bad talking to them about it, because I haven't told them anything in so long. OR I could do what I normally do and turn to another guy, but I hate the feeling I get. I still have really strong feelings for Harley. He broke my heart twice, yet I still can't think of one bad thing about him. All I want to do is call him up and tell him about my day went and see how he's doing, but I can't. I can't chase after him or make him feel sorry for me like I did before. I know that breaking up is the best thing, because being together isn't what he wants, but it doesn't change how I feel. I still want to atleast talk to him, but I know that will make it waay harder for me to get over him. I hate this feeling and I don't know how to get rid of it. I've only had my heart broken by two guys and I don't know how to deal with it. I know I'll move on, but it's still really hard right now. HMM...

Don't know what's going on for a lot of the days this week, but Friday I think I'm going to Lauren's for a movie party. That'll be FUN! Too bad I have to leave early for a doctors appointment. Awesome! Saturday I'm definately going to the movies with Tiff, Drake and Drake's friend. I think it'll be fun and maybe hanging out with a guy friend will help to get my mind off Harley. Who knows. Gabe has a hockey game Sat too, so if I can.. I'm going. Other than that.. who knows. If you wanna do something, give me a call!
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