On this day, I really believe that I had gone to hell
This incident happened exactly a month ago today on November 27th.. Week before final exams and week of my lab final, which I missed and had to make up. Kind of ironic that all of this shit happened the week before finals, eh? Stressed much? This was one of the worst feelings I've ever experinced in all of my exsistence.... I hope & pray that it NEVER happens again!!!!
So, this week I went to hell and came back. Hell is a very scary place, afterall. If I don't want to end up there when I die, I better straighten my act up quickly. No, seriously, this has been a really rough and stressful week for me. It all started on Monday evening when I all of the sudden got really sweaty and hot. So, I turned on my AC, thinking that would cool me down and then I'd be fine. Well, I was very wrong! I think I may have two seizures on Monday evening. My personal care attendant told me that I lost all control of my body and my eyes rolled in the back of my head. She also told me that I was pushing my chair back and forth (the electrical one) and I didn't even know it! Apparently, I was pale as a ghost and had lips as white as sheets. I've had these incidents before, but they have NEVER happened twice in a row like they did on Monday. It was so horrible. It was such a strange feeling. I can't even describe it really other than saying it felt like I was dying. So, anyway, after that happened, I threw up everywhere. So, the seizure and throwing up is starting to make a connection. My mom told me that my cousin, who has seizures all of the time, usually has more when he's about to get sick. I really have no idea. I went to the doctor on Tuesday after vomiting for one complete night, and my doctor told me that I might have had a vesovagal attack (You can look it up on WEB MD, it's very similar to fainting, though). I think he's correct in assuming that my past fainiting "attacks" may have been these vesovagal creatures, but THIS time was way different. It has never been this bad and I don't think I've EVER sweat this badly! Yikes, yikes. I have been trying to forget about it all week, but somehow it does not seem to be working.
Anyway, so he put me on three medications (pain pills, antibiotics, and anti nasuea medicine). He also sent me over to the Oschner Emergency room to have my blood taken in the outpatient lab. When I got to the lab, this lady was there to take my blood. Well, after she had already stuck me once, she figured out that my CP doesn't allow me to completely turn over my arms nor hold them out. I swear sometimes this damn disorder just does NOT conform.. and YES, it's annoying! I cried when she did it because it hurt like hell and the result that I see now is a puncture mark on my right arm, which has now turned purple. Having a startle reflex does not help anything either; Cp is the damn devil sometimes.. it should just grow horns and laugh at me in my face because I can't do anything about it! After the first TWO attempts, she went and got this black lady who was hysterical to hold my arm down.. I felt like I was in lock-down or something. She was much more experienced, and that went smoothly and well. She told me that when she goes to stick the old people, she wants to cry with them. She kept saying "I know baby, I want to cry wit cha." So, that was funny and lightened my spirits a little bit. After the painful visit to the Oschner ER, I went home and took 2 pains pills for my back. Let me just say that those things are FREAKING AMAZING. I've had back pain all of my life on a daily basis, (thanks to the devil that should just laugh at me in the face and grow horns), and I've never had this much relief in my life! I'm beginning to think that I should become a regular pain pill popper. Oh, wait, maybe that's not such an intellectual idea!! I've heard first hand that they can become habbit forming, and I'm basically already addicted to Excedrin... I don't think that would be very wise on my part to become addicted to another medication. (Okay, so you can't really get addicted to Excedrin, but I do take them often because I get BITCH sized headaches .) Pain pills and all of the other pills I've been taking have been miracle workers. I'm doing fine now, but considering this is the week before finals, I've got a whole lot of work to catch up on and not a whole lot of time to do it in. I've done what I need to do this week, and that was to take it easy. Wow, what a week. Oh, yeah, I'm going back to the doctor in two weeks. It really was supposed to be this week, but I'm going to be in Hammond until Friday, so they are going to have to settle for me coming back the next week. I'm going back not this Tuesday coming, but the next one. I'll be sure to update everyone when that time comes. There's one exception.. My closest sources get the news first, but it will eventually circulate to everyone on here because I'll be scribbling a note about it as the information comes along. Even though there has been numerous negatives in this week for me, there's one thing I can say. I've been very blessed with my close friends and family and for others of those that don't know me very well, but still care. :) I'm truly a lucky person! I hope you all have a very good day. I'm braving the malls tonight to go christmas shopping! I'm one brave gal, eh? :)
So, this week I went to hell and came back. Hell is a very scary place, afterall. If I don't want to end up there when I die, I better straighten my act up quickly. No, seriously, this has been a really rough and stressful week for me. It all started on Monday evening when I all of the sudden got really sweaty and hot. So, I turned on my AC, thinking that would cool me down and then I'd be fine. Well, I was very wrong! I think I may have two seizures on Monday evening. My personal care attendant told me that I lost all control of my body and my eyes rolled in the back of my head. She also told me that I was pushing my chair back and forth (the electrical one) and I didn't even know it! Apparently, I was pale as a ghost and had lips as white as sheets. I've had these incidents before, but they have NEVER happened twice in a row like they did on Monday. It was so horrible. It was such a strange feeling. I can't even describe it really other than saying it felt like I was dying. So, anyway, after that happened, I threw up everywhere. So, the seizure and throwing up is starting to make a connection. My mom told me that my cousin, who has seizures all of the time, usually has more when he's about to get sick. I really have no idea. I went to the doctor on Tuesday after vomiting for one complete night, and my doctor told me that I might have had a vesovagal attack (You can look it up on WEB MD, it's very similar to fainting, though). I think he's correct in assuming that my past fainiting "attacks" may have been these vesovagal creatures, but THIS time was way different. It has never been this bad and I don't think I've EVER sweat this badly! Yikes, yikes. I have been trying to forget about it all week, but somehow it does not seem to be working.
Anyway, so he put me on three medications (pain pills, antibiotics, and anti nasuea medicine). He also sent me over to the Oschner Emergency room to have my blood taken in the outpatient lab. When I got to the lab, this lady was there to take my blood. Well, after she had already stuck me once, she figured out that my CP doesn't allow me to completely turn over my arms nor hold them out. I swear sometimes this damn disorder just does NOT conform.. and YES, it's annoying! I cried when she did it because it hurt like hell and the result that I see now is a puncture mark on my right arm, which has now turned purple. Having a startle reflex does not help anything either; Cp is the damn devil sometimes.. it should just grow horns and laugh at me in my face because I can't do anything about it! After the first TWO attempts, she went and got this black lady who was hysterical to hold my arm down.. I felt like I was in lock-down or something. She was much more experienced, and that went smoothly and well. She told me that when she goes to stick the old people, she wants to cry with them. She kept saying "I know baby, I want to cry wit cha." So, that was funny and lightened my spirits a little bit. After the painful visit to the Oschner ER, I went home and took 2 pains pills for my back. Let me just say that those things are FREAKING AMAZING. I've had back pain all of my life on a daily basis, (thanks to the devil that should just laugh at me in the face and grow horns), and I've never had this much relief in my life! I'm beginning to think that I should become a regular pain pill popper. Oh, wait, maybe that's not such an intellectual idea!! I've heard first hand that they can become habbit forming, and I'm basically already addicted to Excedrin... I don't think that would be very wise on my part to become addicted to another medication. (Okay, so you can't really get addicted to Excedrin, but I do take them often because I get BITCH sized headaches .) Pain pills and all of the other pills I've been taking have been miracle workers. I'm doing fine now, but considering this is the week before finals, I've got a whole lot of work to catch up on and not a whole lot of time to do it in. I've done what I need to do this week, and that was to take it easy. Wow, what a week. Oh, yeah, I'm going back to the doctor in two weeks. It really was supposed to be this week, but I'm going to be in Hammond until Friday, so they are going to have to settle for me coming back the next week. I'm going back not this Tuesday coming, but the next one. I'll be sure to update everyone when that time comes. There's one exception.. My closest sources get the news first, but it will eventually circulate to everyone on here because I'll be scribbling a note about it as the information comes along. Even though there has been numerous negatives in this week for me, there's one thing I can say. I've been very blessed with my close friends and family and for others of those that don't know me very well, but still care. :) I'm truly a lucky person! I hope you all have a very good day. I'm braving the malls tonight to go christmas shopping! I'm one brave gal, eh? :)