Everything is the same/Nothing is the same
Life from this point last year to now is completely different. My day to day is pretty much unchanging. But, a year ago there was at least time for people that I care about. Now, I don't have enough time in the day to finish a cup of tea. Everyday that I come home from work I see the half filled cup that I left on my desk in the rush to get out the door, take Smeet to school, and get myself to work. The symbolism is staggering and shock filled, every time.
I am so tired of Hospitals and Doctors. My parents can't catch a break, and we are still in the cycle of one of them being in the hospital each month. Hubs says the stress from taking care of them is part of the reason my stomach looks like I took it out, threw it down a sidewalk, and put it back in. The drama starts every time, they misunderstand one of the multitudes of doctors that they see, or a wrong script is given because they don't fully understand what they're talking about, and then I'm doubled over on my bed...in the floor....wherever.
The only reason I'm able to update today is because I'm home with Smeet/Alexander. He's been very ill for two months, beginning with being diagnosed with bronchitis, never getting well, and then an earache/fever yesterday into last night. We have an appointment at 2:30. I only just got him cozy in my bed with a movie, he's been in my lap or "holding me"* all morning.
Love to you all.
*"Holding me"- He comes up to me, arms outstretched, and says, "I don't feel good. I just want to hold you".
I am so tired of Hospitals and Doctors. My parents can't catch a break, and we are still in the cycle of one of them being in the hospital each month. Hubs says the stress from taking care of them is part of the reason my stomach looks like I took it out, threw it down a sidewalk, and put it back in. The drama starts every time, they misunderstand one of the multitudes of doctors that they see, or a wrong script is given because they don't fully understand what they're talking about, and then I'm doubled over on my bed...in the floor....wherever.
The only reason I'm able to update today is because I'm home with Smeet/Alexander. He's been very ill for two months, beginning with being diagnosed with bronchitis, never getting well, and then an earache/fever yesterday into last night. We have an appointment at 2:30. I only just got him cozy in my bed with a movie, he's been in my lap or "holding me"* all morning.
Love to you all.
*"Holding me"- He comes up to me, arms outstretched, and says, "I don't feel good. I just want to hold you".