Fic: over the rain cloud
Title: over the rain cloud
Fandom: Paprika (2006)
Author: karlamartinova
Characters/Pairing: Osanai, one-sided Osanai/Chiba
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Warning: Mentions of sexual abuse!
Wordcount: 456
Disclaimer: This movie I call perfection was made by Satoshi Kon and I wont be stealing anything from him.
AN: Because I watched again and somehow Osanai is becoming my favourite character, I wonder what is says about me.
Summary: “You will never be enough, once a disappointment, always a disappointment."
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Osanai was between the popular kids in high school. Girls wanted him and boys wanted to be him, teachers predicted him a big future and colleges offered themselves to him. He was everything a mother could want, a dream son and yet.
He refused the job at first; he wouldn't be an assistant to a woman, someone with state college and name that means nothing. But they started working on a new project, a dream machine and Osanai's interest was piqued, it could be a breakthrough and he could be a part of it. It could be what he waited for all his life for.
Chiba didn't acknowledge him at first, she let him stare over her shoulder but that was as far as it went and Osanai hated her, hated her coldness and arrogance. Hated her grey suits that didn't do her body justice and hated that she was the only one who understood all the bullshit Tokita was speaking most of the time.
Osanai hated her with burning passion. It kept him awake at night and made him spend forty minutes in shower when he couldn't get her face from his mind, her slim body and those beautiful eyes. She really was a woman of any mans dreams.
For first time, he heard it from Himuro, heard the horrible untruth, the rumour about personal relationship between Chiba and Tokita. It wasn't, couldn't be true. Tokita was a man-child, a brain wrapped in fat. He was a genius, that even Osanai couldn't doubt but he wasn't a man for Chiba.
Osanai was.
“You will never be enough, once a disappointment, always a disappointment,” his mother kept telling him when he was a child. Never showing any love or affection, she had patted his head when he was a child and nursed him when he was a baby but Osanai always had to look for affection elsewhere.
Numerous nannies, teachers or his swimming trainer. Osanai had let him touch, let him tell him how beautiful and perfect he is, enjoyed someone finally saying it.
He knew he could hear it from Himuro too, knew about pornographic pictures he drew and hid in his desk drawer. Osanai knew everything because the chairman had told him.
“If you would be helpful, I am sure I can arrange anything you desire,” the old man said to him, moved his wheelchair and stopped just before him, their knees touching. “What do you want?” he asked and Osanai said “power” because one thing his mother taught him. Never show your weakness.
He said yes, he said yes to many things, said yes when he should say no but there was something more powerful that disgust over himself. There was Doctor Chiba.
Fandom: Paprika (2006)
Author: karlamartinova
Characters/Pairing: Osanai, one-sided Osanai/Chiba
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Warning: Mentions of sexual abuse!
Wordcount: 456
Disclaimer: This movie I call perfection was made by Satoshi Kon and I wont be stealing anything from him.
AN: Because I watched again and somehow Osanai is becoming my favourite character, I wonder what is says about me.
Summary: “You will never be enough, once a disappointment, always a disappointment."
.
Osanai was between the popular kids in high school. Girls wanted him and boys wanted to be him, teachers predicted him a big future and colleges offered themselves to him. He was everything a mother could want, a dream son and yet.
He refused the job at first; he wouldn't be an assistant to a woman, someone with state college and name that means nothing. But they started working on a new project, a dream machine and Osanai's interest was piqued, it could be a breakthrough and he could be a part of it. It could be what he waited for all his life for.
Chiba didn't acknowledge him at first, she let him stare over her shoulder but that was as far as it went and Osanai hated her, hated her coldness and arrogance. Hated her grey suits that didn't do her body justice and hated that she was the only one who understood all the bullshit Tokita was speaking most of the time.
Osanai hated her with burning passion. It kept him awake at night and made him spend forty minutes in shower when he couldn't get her face from his mind, her slim body and those beautiful eyes. She really was a woman of any mans dreams.
For first time, he heard it from Himuro, heard the horrible untruth, the rumour about personal relationship between Chiba and Tokita. It wasn't, couldn't be true. Tokita was a man-child, a brain wrapped in fat. He was a genius, that even Osanai couldn't doubt but he wasn't a man for Chiba.
Osanai was.
“You will never be enough, once a disappointment, always a disappointment,” his mother kept telling him when he was a child. Never showing any love or affection, she had patted his head when he was a child and nursed him when he was a baby but Osanai always had to look for affection elsewhere.
Numerous nannies, teachers or his swimming trainer. Osanai had let him touch, let him tell him how beautiful and perfect he is, enjoyed someone finally saying it.
He knew he could hear it from Himuro too, knew about pornographic pictures he drew and hid in his desk drawer. Osanai knew everything because the chairman had told him.
“If you would be helpful, I am sure I can arrange anything you desire,” the old man said to him, moved his wheelchair and stopped just before him, their knees touching. “What do you want?” he asked and Osanai said “power” because one thing his mother taught him. Never show your weakness.
He said yes, he said yes to many things, said yes when he should say no but there was something more powerful that disgust over himself. There was Doctor Chiba.