*yawn*
Hmmm...well an update okay...
Jules almost died. The emotional and financial turmoil that has ensued as consequence of keeping him alive seems to have jaded me to the point that I don't seem to prioritize making the time for the little things anymore...like updating LJ. Will try to work on that. At the present he is doing okay. He is eating, is on meds, has no fur, and has picked up a very odd, un-jules-like howling habit but he is happy and doing much better. Yay!
I also seem to have made a habit of conveniently forgetting where by phone is. I guess I just don't feel like talking so I fail to remember to carry it on me 24/7 like I used to. Leave me a message and when I find it, I will call ya back. I care, God KNOWS I care and would love to talk in person. I am just not as much of a "phone-body" as I used to be. I would just rather kick it in person, throw back a few and call it a night.
I have also yet again learned to never get too vocationally comfortable. I got the worst case of deja vu last week at work as all of the contractors were asked to come into an impromptu meeting. Upon walking in and seeing the somber faces of the elite management mob that had convened in our honor, I knew it could only mean one thing.
Phuck.
New Call Center? check
Elimination of Jobs? check
Crappy relocation package to another city? check
There is a possibility if enough people leave/get converted/relocate/get fired/screw up and move down the conversion list that I MIGHT have a chance. *le sigh*
Its weird how many things have gone so terribly wrong in 2006. Bad luck for sure. But I guess things could be a lot worse so I still have managed to keep my "glass is half full" attitude for the most part. For once no matter what gets thrown at me, I dont have the despair of wondering if things will be okay. I can feel they will be. I love feeling like I have control over my own destiny. I just have to shake myself out of apathy enough to get things done for myself. I don't allow anything overly petty to pull my strings. I do have a lot of things to be thankful for so I am focusing on that. There will ALWAYS be something wrong. Always something that could be better. I guess this is me sucking it up and growing up.
I think once the stress of refinancing my car in July passes I will be less preoccupied and antisocial. Right now it is a black cloud that constantly hovers over me. That and the fact that I actually OWE taxes this year :-/ Right now anything I had saved went to saving Jules. Now that he is doing better maybe I can try again. If he goes downhill though, we are completely tapped out. Time to go back to work
<3 u guys
Jules almost died. The emotional and financial turmoil that has ensued as consequence of keeping him alive seems to have jaded me to the point that I don't seem to prioritize making the time for the little things anymore...like updating LJ. Will try to work on that. At the present he is doing okay. He is eating, is on meds, has no fur, and has picked up a very odd, un-jules-like howling habit but he is happy and doing much better. Yay!
I also seem to have made a habit of conveniently forgetting where by phone is. I guess I just don't feel like talking so I fail to remember to carry it on me 24/7 like I used to. Leave me a message and when I find it, I will call ya back. I care, God KNOWS I care and would love to talk in person. I am just not as much of a "phone-body" as I used to be. I would just rather kick it in person, throw back a few and call it a night.
I have also yet again learned to never get too vocationally comfortable. I got the worst case of deja vu last week at work as all of the contractors were asked to come into an impromptu meeting. Upon walking in and seeing the somber faces of the elite management mob that had convened in our honor, I knew it could only mean one thing.
Phuck.
New Call Center? check
Elimination of Jobs? check
Crappy relocation package to another city? check
There is a possibility if enough people leave/get converted/relocate/get fired/screw up and move down the conversion list that I MIGHT have a chance. *le sigh*
Its weird how many things have gone so terribly wrong in 2006. Bad luck for sure. But I guess things could be a lot worse so I still have managed to keep my "glass is half full" attitude for the most part. For once no matter what gets thrown at me, I dont have the despair of wondering if things will be okay. I can feel they will be. I love feeling like I have control over my own destiny. I just have to shake myself out of apathy enough to get things done for myself. I don't allow anything overly petty to pull my strings. I do have a lot of things to be thankful for so I am focusing on that. There will ALWAYS be something wrong. Always something that could be better. I guess this is me sucking it up and growing up.
I think once the stress of refinancing my car in July passes I will be less preoccupied and antisocial. Right now it is a black cloud that constantly hovers over me. That and the fact that I actually OWE taxes this year :-/ Right now anything I had saved went to saving Jules. Now that he is doing better maybe I can try again. If he goes downhill though, we are completely tapped out. Time to go back to work
<3 u guys