Ewan ko...feel ko lang pag mawala talaga mom ko parang mawawalan ako ng "homebase" though not in a literal sense. It's like, when the subject comes out I'd go "ooh, my mom she lives in--" no, wait she's dead! Or "It's cool to take photos of those pretty windowshops in Christmas evening--!" but oh wait what to do it with? Or "I gotta email mom--" but she's not ever going to open her inbox anymore.
Um, yeah parang kahit gaano ka kadalas umaalis sa homebase mo, nasa utak mo parin na meron kang homebase na pwedeng balikan kahit na hindi mo talaga mababalikan someday. Pag alam mo nang wala, parang may napalaking kulang at kukulitin ka sobra sa utak "shet, wala na akong homebase."
Yeah, I feel the same way about the feeling part. Sometimes it's like I get obligated to feel something. I was wondering why my cousins were crying profusely in grandpa's funeral when they've been with him less than we had. I feel like I need to juice out some Obligatory Tears just to save face.
I mean, you know...you'll miss the homebase. Sometimes, the reasons may be selfish "no more free cds" for example, but you miss them just the same.
Think Obaq. Think King.
;_____; Ooooh I miss Obaq! I wouldn't cry for a cat but I want a black and white gentle soft kitty to smoosh into a catball!
Sometimes it's like I get obligated to feel something. - Aiyaa, that's it. That's what I was supposed to type but I couldn't find the right words for it.
Sometimes, the reasons may be selfish "no more free cds" for example, but you miss them just the same. - But my problem is, as of now, I think I won't be missing anything or anyone just yet. I mean, I always think a lot about stuff like that and every time whether or not somebody died it's still that same "Okay. Period." thing. No missing anything or anyone. That's what bothers me a lot. :|
Um, yeah parang kahit gaano ka kadalas umaalis sa homebase mo, nasa utak mo parin na meron kang homebase na pwedeng balikan kahit na hindi mo talaga mababalikan someday. Pag alam mo nang wala, parang may napalaking kulang at kukulitin ka sobra sa utak "shet, wala na akong homebase."
Yeah, I feel the same way about the feeling part. Sometimes it's like I get obligated to feel something. I was wondering why my cousins were crying profusely in grandpa's funeral when they've been with him less than we had. I feel like I need to juice out some Obligatory Tears just to save face.
I mean, you know...you'll miss the homebase. Sometimes, the reasons may be selfish "no more free cds" for example, but you miss them just the same.
Think Obaq. Think King.
;_____; Ooooh I miss Obaq! I wouldn't cry for a cat but I want a black and white gentle soft kitty to smoosh into a catball!
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- Aiyaa, that's it. That's what I was supposed to type but I couldn't find the right words for it.
Sometimes, the reasons may be selfish "no more free cds" for example, but you miss them just the same.
- But my problem is, as of now, I think I won't be missing anything or anyone just yet. I mean, I always think a lot about stuff like that and every time whether or not somebody died it's still that same "Okay. Period." thing. No missing anything or anyone. That's what bothers me a lot. :|
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