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been so chill lately...ive been alone..with no one...i dont hate it.
im happy for the first time in a long time. i dont need anyone or anything to make me feel this way. i JUST realized this over the past 2 weeks.
im not the type..or better yet i always had in my mind that im happier being with friends all the time and doing things 24/7... and im not..all i needed was alone time. from everyone and everything and everywhere. spending more time with myself. i know that if i keep this up a little longer ill get exactly what ive been asking for. if i get distracted everyday and everyweekend by doing things with friends all the time then ill get no where and watch as people go on with their lives while im here not being selfish and thinking about my friends all the time and just worrying what others will say and do not caring where i go.
thats over. im done doing that now its my time, new year and all. last year to me was like those little black clouds that bring rain and thunder all the time...after that cloud is gone, a beautiful day comes right after..well this year its like that beautiful day...the day that i deserve.
i dont let the problems with friends or society get to me as much its almost as if i dont care to be honest. what gets to me is MY problems...the problems that i thought would be over material things from my parents or with money...ive come to realize that those are problems i only can fix and im not that worried because their fixable.
im happy now i guess.
im happy for the first time in a long time. i dont need anyone or anything to make me feel this way. i JUST realized this over the past 2 weeks.
im not the type..or better yet i always had in my mind that im happier being with friends all the time and doing things 24/7... and im not..all i needed was alone time. from everyone and everything and everywhere. spending more time with myself. i know that if i keep this up a little longer ill get exactly what ive been asking for. if i get distracted everyday and everyweekend by doing things with friends all the time then ill get no where and watch as people go on with their lives while im here not being selfish and thinking about my friends all the time and just worrying what others will say and do not caring where i go.
thats over. im done doing that now its my time, new year and all. last year to me was like those little black clouds that bring rain and thunder all the time...after that cloud is gone, a beautiful day comes right after..well this year its like that beautiful day...the day that i deserve.
i dont let the problems with friends or society get to me as much its almost as if i dont care to be honest. what gets to me is MY problems...the problems that i thought would be over material things from my parents or with money...ive come to realize that those are problems i only can fix and im not that worried because their fixable.
im happy now i guess.