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[karinapaaaants]

its been about almost 2 months i think since i got myself out of school, i feel useless, i dont go and get a job when i have all the time in the world to do it, i dont get my license either, i act like im so busy but i really am not. so i spoke to my dad yesterday i ditched luis to go hang out with my dad for a while haha andwe were first talking about what im going to do until i find a school i REALLY want to go to, and he offered me a job here at his office being the sales manager for some part department they have and i get paid commision and by the hour, i accepted and i started my training today im sort of excited because my mom wont be fucking adding things to do and shit, and they dont pay when ever they want, so im going to be on the pay roll. i opened my bank account too yesterday and i should be getting my debit card on like tuesday so im looking foward to trying to be independent so i can go to school elsewhere in another state or country. my dad was thinking about sending me to california or new york where fashion is really good, and i can get alot of good opportunities, we researched yesteday at barnes and noble and books and books on colleges where i can go to for fashion merchandising and i found really good ones. im glad i dont have to pick only in miami, im just scared of going somewhere away from home, then again i think ill have fun and can focus more on school since ill be sort of on my own, now all i need to do is demonstrate to my dad that i can be independent and can do thikngs on my own without having someone there to guide me ...........i can take as long as i want, i dont know if its me or something but people here in miami kind of stick to what you want to do therefore when you want to do something for yourself they kind o seem to be sticking to you blah whatever that meant.
i just feel like here in miami i cant do much of anyhting on their own, i mean they can but i dont know gkjhsjdkfghjkshdgs anyways im going to circa tomorrow whos going so i can see you!