Going to the "Jesse Store"....
Last I updated it was the beginning of Lent and now we are winding down toward the end.
JESSUP
Its over. Now to just have "the talk" once Easter hits. He said it took losing me to realize how much he loved me. For me, it took losing him and losing touch to realize how much I don't need him. And how much he doesn't need me. We're not completely right for each other. Although I will say I'm probably a little more right for him than he is for me. Plus, now the trust thing is completely out of whack and I know that going back is only going to be awkward and this entire incident will ALWAYS be there and ALWAYS be floating in the background. I've told a bunch of people how I feel, I just gotta put it in words for Jesse. I did hear through my informant that there is a huge possibility that he's on the same page because Lent has run his patience to non-existence. Man I hope so. That would make things easier.
JESSE STORE
So while babysitting yesterday, Mark completely broke my heart. He asked me where Jesse was. If he was back and a nice Jesse. If Jesse wasn't mean anymore. And when I told him Jesse wouldn't be back he told me that yes Jesse WILL be back. Because he's going to go to the Jesse store and pick up a new Jesse. BREAK MY HEART, MARK!
ALLEN & FRANK
So beginning of Lent I had discussed a guy named Allen. I did end up going on that date. I picked him up at his house. We then went to see The Adjustment Bureau in Edgewater. Prior to the film's starting, we played some arcade games. He paid, I sucked at shooting bad guys, bucks, and robots. The movie was pretty decent but slower moving than I thought it would be. He did the slick arm around thing during the movie. Left it there for a minute and then retracted it. I don't know if it was something I did or what, but it was gone. We finished the movie and went to eat at a diner. While talking to him I just decided that his personality and mine were NOT on the same page. Now its not that I'm a positive person, cause we all know I'm not. But even I can say that he was way too negative for me. And I could almost sense a subdued nastiness about him. So nothing happened with that. Currently, I'm talking to this guy Frank from Iselin who is my age. He's nice. He talks to me whenever he is online. So we'll see. He's Puerto Rican as well. *lol* Lent will be the time the hispanics hit me up, huh?
FUTURE PREDICTIONS
Marilyn finally went to that famous psychic we always wanted to go to. I was supposed to go to but we were late and they only had time for one. I'm thinking of scheduling my appointment next week for Friday since I have a day off. I really wanna hear what she has to say. =) I hope its that I'm moving out. Because I can't stand being here anymore. It has nothing to do with the actual people who live here, I love my family. But the inconvenience is getting on my nerves. I want to do laundry when I want to do it. I want to come and go whenever I want without question. I'd also like to have cable tv access. But I feel like I'm never getting out of here since I am so bad at saving money. Currently any money I save needs to go toward the car fund. I just hope I'm out of here before I hit 30. That is the ultimate goal. And as far as my job. I'm good for the next month at least. My review went over pretty well. Bumped up 4% in my quality =).
THE END
JESSUP
Its over. Now to just have "the talk" once Easter hits. He said it took losing me to realize how much he loved me. For me, it took losing him and losing touch to realize how much I don't need him. And how much he doesn't need me. We're not completely right for each other. Although I will say I'm probably a little more right for him than he is for me. Plus, now the trust thing is completely out of whack and I know that going back is only going to be awkward and this entire incident will ALWAYS be there and ALWAYS be floating in the background. I've told a bunch of people how I feel, I just gotta put it in words for Jesse. I did hear through my informant that there is a huge possibility that he's on the same page because Lent has run his patience to non-existence. Man I hope so. That would make things easier.
JESSE STORE
So while babysitting yesterday, Mark completely broke my heart. He asked me where Jesse was. If he was back and a nice Jesse. If Jesse wasn't mean anymore. And when I told him Jesse wouldn't be back he told me that yes Jesse WILL be back. Because he's going to go to the Jesse store and pick up a new Jesse. BREAK MY HEART, MARK!
ALLEN & FRANK
So beginning of Lent I had discussed a guy named Allen. I did end up going on that date. I picked him up at his house. We then went to see The Adjustment Bureau in Edgewater. Prior to the film's starting, we played some arcade games. He paid, I sucked at shooting bad guys, bucks, and robots. The movie was pretty decent but slower moving than I thought it would be. He did the slick arm around thing during the movie. Left it there for a minute and then retracted it. I don't know if it was something I did or what, but it was gone. We finished the movie and went to eat at a diner. While talking to him I just decided that his personality and mine were NOT on the same page. Now its not that I'm a positive person, cause we all know I'm not. But even I can say that he was way too negative for me. And I could almost sense a subdued nastiness about him. So nothing happened with that. Currently, I'm talking to this guy Frank from Iselin who is my age. He's nice. He talks to me whenever he is online. So we'll see. He's Puerto Rican as well. *lol* Lent will be the time the hispanics hit me up, huh?
FUTURE PREDICTIONS
Marilyn finally went to that famous psychic we always wanted to go to. I was supposed to go to but we were late and they only had time for one. I'm thinking of scheduling my appointment next week for Friday since I have a day off. I really wanna hear what she has to say. =) I hope its that I'm moving out. Because I can't stand being here anymore. It has nothing to do with the actual people who live here, I love my family. But the inconvenience is getting on my nerves. I want to do laundry when I want to do it. I want to come and go whenever I want without question. I'd also like to have cable tv access. But I feel like I'm never getting out of here since I am so bad at saving money. Currently any money I save needs to go toward the car fund. I just hope I'm out of here before I hit 30. That is the ultimate goal. And as far as my job. I'm good for the next month at least. My review went over pretty well. Bumped up 4% in my quality =).
THE END