high on life..
well its been a minute since i've written. this is my life. school. studying. worrying. work. church. jared. friends. karaoke. i feel like i have plenty of extra time but it just seems to slip through my fingers and find itself lost. the winter is creeping in. im freezing. i truly love to sing. i love to just sit in my car and listen to meaningful words that come with a tune. its amazing how each song has a different impact on my emotions. today i heard a song that reminded me of walla walla, and pedro. lots of songs do.
a couple new things in my life lately. first off, i dont care who reads this. but if you disagree with it, then go on and read something else. dont ridicule me please. i dont need to hear that.
i tried weed this weekend. i tried it once when i was 16 and i didnt get a buzz. but this time i got so high it scared me. obviously i had no idea what it was going to feel like, and when i realized what was going on i was already losing it. you know when you're falling asleep and you start talking to the person next to you, and its just jibberish.. saying things that dont make sense, and then you realized what you said and you feel so stupid..? yeah, thats how it felt. wow, everything was so funny. the birds flying over our heads who were "migrating." trying to do math. answering the phone when it was just a text message and wondering why no one was talking. it was fun. definitely not a habit im going to pick up, but it was worth a try, and im glad i did. no more wondering.
on a different note, i started dating jared a few weeks ago. i know that some of my friends are like "well what about chris?" but i cant sit here and wait and wonder if he even wants to be with me in 7 months when he gets back. i deserve to find love and enjoy it if it comes my way. and i am, very much. he is an amazing guy.. he treats me really well and makes me very happy. i told him to tell me if i ever did something he didnt like or bothered him and he told me that he wants me to be whoever i am, not to change for him. how cool is that? every time i talk to him or see him i discover something new about him that i like. it took a year and 3 months for me to find a relationship like this.
im going to new york to see tama and my family in about 3 weeks.. i cant wait! and then in december im going home to walla walla!!! for 3 weeks! i really cant wait for that.. i miss my family and friends *home* so much. so i'll be there on the 16th and am leaving around the 6th of january i think. and for the last week that im there, jared's going to fly out and spend a week in washington with me, so he'll be able to meet my family and friends, and see the west coast for the first time! its going to be such a great vacation.. i just cant wait!
j.n. + k.g. = ♥
a couple new things in my life lately. first off, i dont care who reads this. but if you disagree with it, then go on and read something else. dont ridicule me please. i dont need to hear that.
i tried weed this weekend. i tried it once when i was 16 and i didnt get a buzz. but this time i got so high it scared me. obviously i had no idea what it was going to feel like, and when i realized what was going on i was already losing it. you know when you're falling asleep and you start talking to the person next to you, and its just jibberish.. saying things that dont make sense, and then you realized what you said and you feel so stupid..? yeah, thats how it felt. wow, everything was so funny. the birds flying over our heads who were "migrating." trying to do math. answering the phone when it was just a text message and wondering why no one was talking. it was fun. definitely not a habit im going to pick up, but it was worth a try, and im glad i did. no more wondering.
on a different note, i started dating jared a few weeks ago. i know that some of my friends are like "well what about chris?" but i cant sit here and wait and wonder if he even wants to be with me in 7 months when he gets back. i deserve to find love and enjoy it if it comes my way. and i am, very much. he is an amazing guy.. he treats me really well and makes me very happy. i told him to tell me if i ever did something he didnt like or bothered him and he told me that he wants me to be whoever i am, not to change for him. how cool is that? every time i talk to him or see him i discover something new about him that i like. it took a year and 3 months for me to find a relationship like this.
im going to new york to see tama and my family in about 3 weeks.. i cant wait! and then in december im going home to walla walla!!! for 3 weeks! i really cant wait for that.. i miss my family and friends *home* so much. so i'll be there on the 16th and am leaving around the 6th of january i think. and for the last week that im there, jared's going to fly out and spend a week in washington with me, so he'll be able to meet my family and friends, and see the west coast for the first time! its going to be such a great vacation.. i just cant wait!
j.n. + k.g. = ♥