emotion so strong
such a perfect day. why blister it with loneliness after the ending of my mom's visit? does spending time with ones you love heal the desire to see them or simply make it worse? its amazing how quickly my summer is fading and the coolness of fall seems to be spreading over this city like a plague.
my email inbox jolted my emotions for a moment last night, when i found a new message from him. he still loves me. is it better to cut off all ties that bond, to free me from his selfishness? pictures of him are tucked away, but i somehow seem to stumble across a forgotten one in my wallet. memories flood. my heart grows heavy. he is somewhere far away and loves me still. i need a distraction.
what about the night he came home and woke me with a gorgeous bouquet of flowers? our daily walks to the dog park with hollie and lillie? falling asleep on the couch wrapped in each others arms. watching the sun set over our fishing pole tips, in our secret hole, where our names are engraved on the tree. am i to forget about these memories as if they dont exist? does the next guy who walks into my life expect it to be blank and fresh? i loved him with all of my heart and soul. a love so strong doesnt fade quickly or easily.
lord be gentle with my heart. im not strong enough to handle this alone.
my email inbox jolted my emotions for a moment last night, when i found a new message from him. he still loves me. is it better to cut off all ties that bond, to free me from his selfishness? pictures of him are tucked away, but i somehow seem to stumble across a forgotten one in my wallet. memories flood. my heart grows heavy. he is somewhere far away and loves me still. i need a distraction.
what about the night he came home and woke me with a gorgeous bouquet of flowers? our daily walks to the dog park with hollie and lillie? falling asleep on the couch wrapped in each others arms. watching the sun set over our fishing pole tips, in our secret hole, where our names are engraved on the tree. am i to forget about these memories as if they dont exist? does the next guy who walks into my life expect it to be blank and fresh? i loved him with all of my heart and soul. a love so strong doesnt fade quickly or easily.
lord be gentle with my heart. im not strong enough to handle this alone.