I'm sorry, really.
Eddie and I are back together again. Obviously, things won't be the same for a while. Some things will never be the same again. It seems everyday that goes by my life become a little more complicated.
I used to pride myself on my excellent judgment. Now, I'm just not sure about anything anymore. I know God is always with me, and that's a wonderful feeling, always having someone there to catch me when to I fall and watch over me. In my relationship with Eddie, I am hitting a lot of gray areas in my conscience that I have never hit before. I'm living on a day to day basis in the real world, trying to trust in God's wisdom, when my best friend doesn't agree with me. Robin always loves me, but she definitely does not think I should get back with Eddie. It's difficult to go against the grain with someone you love, but either way I decided that would happen.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm scared, because either way I will "lose" someone I love. It's like playing Russian roulette with a fully loaded gun. I told her today that the risk was worth the cost. I most likely will eat my words one day, but for now, I am just going to trust God that he will let me up right where I need to be.
I used to pride myself on my excellent judgment. Now, I'm just not sure about anything anymore. I know God is always with me, and that's a wonderful feeling, always having someone there to catch me when to I fall and watch over me. In my relationship with Eddie, I am hitting a lot of gray areas in my conscience that I have never hit before. I'm living on a day to day basis in the real world, trying to trust in God's wisdom, when my best friend doesn't agree with me. Robin always loves me, but she definitely does not think I should get back with Eddie. It's difficult to go against the grain with someone you love, but either way I decided that would happen.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm scared, because either way I will "lose" someone I love. It's like playing Russian roulette with a fully loaded gun. I told her today that the risk was worth the cost. I most likely will eat my words one day, but for now, I am just going to trust God that he will let me up right where I need to be.